i hate it
lust
i hate you
get away from me
i can't be near you
i'm in love with you
i know i shouldn't be
but i am
why?
i don't know why
you don't treat me right
why can't i just forget you
i think about you every second
you're always in my head
you're the first thing i think of when i get up
and the last thing when i go to bed
everyday i can't wait to see you
you don't even have to see me
as long as i see you i'm soothed somehow
after every class i walk around just to catch a glimpse of you
when you smile at me i melt
when you touch me my heart sparks
i feel again
i feel alive
i let you in me
you're a part of me now
am i not a part of you?
why can't you feel the way i do?
am i not good enough?
or am i too good?
i hate this
it hurts
why does it hurt so much?
why?
why do you plague my mind?
why can't i get over you?
what's so good about you?
you know i'm in love with you
you don't want me to get over you
in some sick way it makes you feel good
to have someone stuck on you
it makes you feel superior
do you care that i'm hurting?
do you see my pain?
are you spiteful?
are you just playing with my head?
you've said you love me
how could you?
actions speak louder than words
you don't love me
you just use me
use me to feel better about yourself
i want you to love me
i want to be with you
i'd give anything
i foolishly hope that one day you'll feel the same
you'll wake up and miraculously love me
i know that's unrealistic
i know that won't happen
but what's the harm in hoping for the impossible?
i know you'll never love me
i just wish it didn't hurt so much.