| 2*26*043 written for savannah |
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you fool them all
all of them
they believe you're happy
you even convince yourself sometimes
but every chance for happiness you push away
you abuse those who love you
i love you and you know it
it scares you
you love me and it scares you
being happy terrifies you
that's why you won't let us be
that's why you choose those who use and abuse you
treat you like shit
you don't think you deserve to be loved
but you do
you do
deep down inside you know love
yet now you couldn't define it at gunpoint
you carelessly fumble the word around
"i love you"
"i love her"
"i love.." "i love.." "i love.."
i don't believe you
how could you possibly love her?!
did you ever love me?
how come i want what we had back?
do you?
do you ever think about it?
that happiness!
the passion
the love
it was new to us both
it was scary
but with us together it was great
or is that just how I feel???
how much do i mean to you?
you haven't treated me right
you linger inside my soul
you cheated
yet my love never faded
you left
yet the passion never died
damn it!
why won't this fucking thing just go away?!
this fucking love
this dumbass love
stupid motherfucking love
i don't want it for you anymore
you "just want to be friends"
i can't!
this feeling won't leave my heart
how did you get over me?
how did you do it?
tell me your secret
tell me
maybe the secret is the love was never there
maybe that's why it was so easy for you
i wish i could've known that from the beginning
i gave myself to you stupidly because i thought we'd be together forever
now i can't seem to get the fuck over it
how fucking pathetic am i?
will i be your friend?!
will i be your friend?!
no i will not
your presence torments me
i can't be with you
when i accidently touch you you cringe as like from disgust
do i disgust you?
i'm sick of feeling this way
why can't you love me anymore?
why can't you touch me anymore?
why can't you kiss me anymore?
why won't you be with me?
ah, yes the issue of love
you don't understand the seriousness of this
i want to marry you
i want to spend the rest of my life with you
i want to have children with you
and i close my eyes and imagine it but then i remember it'll never happen
i had your love once
but i don't anymore
when you offered it to me again i didn't take it
and now that it's me who wants you, you're not interested
i don't understand
i'm smart and i'm going to college
i'll promise to always support you and give you everything you want
but none of that matters to you
you want someone to party with or someone who does drugs
why am i not good enough for you?
or am i too good?
why don't you love me?
we have so many great memories together
when you think of them they make you happy
so why wouldn't you want that back?
we can have more of those memories
yet you won't allow it
if i knew it would have ended up like this i would have never talked to you
i wish i hadn't
i'm not happy
and you're not happy
you know you're not
how come you've given up on us
how come you won't give us another chance
see if i'm the answer
oh, that's right because you're you
am i imagining that we were happy when we were together?
for some reason you think feeling for someone makes you weak
that if you love me you won't be strong anymore
it's not true
we'd be together
i'd never let anyone hurt you
you can lean on me
none of these other girls care
you'll figure out soon enough
i'm the only one that truly has
i'm the only one that truly will
i beg please be with me but i know it won't be
you want to be friends
but you just can't see
the love i have for you
the love i wish i didn't have
the love i wish you had for me
it's the reason my answer is no, we can't be friends
i long for that passion we had
when we were unable to keep our hands off each other
when every day we went to school just to see each other
do you remember that?
the mornings in the library
that halloween night
cuddling in your bed
do you miss that?
the millions of notes
the cards and gifts for no reason
the sneaking around
i loved that
i want that
i guess i'll have to find it with someone else
your love for me is gone
i'll never forget the past though
goodbye. |
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