| 11*8*03 written for savannah |
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i fucking knew it
you're too good to be true
you all are
why do i keep doing this to myself?
i'm strong and smart
yet i let these people i feel for take advantage of me
they belittle me
they damage my pride
why am i being so stupid?
this isn't who i am
i'm michelle
i don't cry
i don't hurt
i don't feel
and i don't love
what for?
life sucks
and then you die
everyone hurts me
i swear i have a fucking sign tattoed on my head that says
HURT ME PLEASE!
you are a parasite
you feed of my hurt
my pain
my tears
do you enjoy this?
playing mind games
yet you hate fucking games
you throw yourself on others in front of me to try and make me jealous
and it works
why does it work?
how come i can't ignore it
3 years i've known you
1 year you were away but came back
nothing changed
you're still the same
your looks might be different
but inside you're still the old you
you try to cover it up with your flirting, peircings, and inappropriate comments
but i see through you
others might go for your charade
but i know you too well
i don't buy it
you're so unhappy
you poor little girl
yet any chance for happiness you push away
i'd treat you right,
i'd love you
yet you go for the cheating slut
i understand you better than even you do
yet you go with those who aren't so sure
i'd do anything for you
and even after all the pain you've caused me
maybe that makes me stupid
i don't know
i'm sure soon i'll have enough and cut you off
but...i'm not there yet
hopefully you won't push me there
you confide in me how you want to be good
how you want help
but your actions speak your true intentions
you want to get out of trouble but you're not willing to work for it
i'd give everything up for you
i'm not ashamed of you
you're the only thing i'm sure of
i'd tell everyone at the top of my lungs if we were together
i can see me with you
i love you
yet maybe i'm too late
maybe i'm another happiness you'll push away
why do you do that?
you're throwing your life away
do you realize that?
i offer my help but you don't take it
you keep talking about it but don't do a thing
why is that?
for all i care you can be with her
she's white trash and you will be too if you continue on this path
i have potential
i'm doing something with my life
you've got it too but you don't apply yourself
i wish so bad that you could see you through my eyes
then you'd truly know
i love you with all my heart, body and soul and i'll never let you go
atleast not yet. |
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