| 9*12*03 written for oli |
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watching the babies
their miniature bodies and souls
their very beings reaching out to grab me
i want one of my own
i want ot experience the joy
this girl hasn't experienced it with the guy she loves
yet she has her kids
and she always will
and an everlasting love for them will always exist
their beauty engulfs me
i'm in awe
my whole body goes numb and my heart flutters
i want one of my own
i feel this deep within my soul
and since i feel it so, i confide in you
i tell you my desire and you're silent
the first words out are "don't look at ME"
then you scoff
my heart breaks
such hateful words from the one i love
the one who's supposed to love me back
i let you in me
unprotected
i gave myself to you
and this is what you say?
my eyes fill with tears
i would've settled for anything else
maybe "i'd like that but not right now"
my worries about you already having a kid are justified
you can experience this joy with the one you don't love
but not with me?
how so?
yet you DO love me don't you?
then, why do you condradict yourself?
maybe you don't love me as much as you thought
maybe i'm NOT the right one for you, your "soulmate"
your words have wounded me deeply
you have hurt me like you promised me you never would
my heart is forever broken. |
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