Do I deserve to be this lucky

After all I've done in my past?

I can't believe that I've been

Allowed to keep her at my side

Every day feels precious to me.

I can't take it for granted as

There's a chance whoever gave her to me

Will take her away again.

She tells me that I should

Forgive myself for my past misdeeds

I can't because if I do

She might disappear and I can't lose her.

No, I'll keep on trying to atone.

I'd rather live the rest of my life

With the guilt and memories of my evil ways

Than to wake up alone some day

I'll hold her close while she sleeps,

Steal glances at her while she writes

I'll give her all my love even if it's for a short time

Do I deserve to be this lucky after all I've done in my past?