Yes. I am going quiz happy. This one was a little more serious.. :p
Yeah I'm crazy. Don't act like your suprised.
| @imee go bye bye @ 12:22 a.m |
Well today was another "happy" day for me. Becky called me and we talked for like two hours.. haha. I also just got back from my grandparent's house today. I felt bad becuase my dog looked so lonely when I came over and fed her.
Last saturday I went and visited my friend Charlotte who is pregnant with a baby girl. It was so cool feeling the baby kick in her stomach, god does miracles. But I met her boyfriend and hes a real jerk, it makes me so mad, she deserves someone so much better.
On Sunday I went to Wildwaves with my friend Michelle which was pretty fun, though I was only on three hours of sleep, and on an empty stomach. It was a total blast the whole day, that is untill I went on the tea cup ride and got really dizzy. On an empty stomach I still managed to throw up.
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Life is a very complex thing to you. You don't understand why there's hate, when we should all love each other. Most things bring you pain, slow painful emotional pain. You know someday you'll unlock the secrets of the universe, but right now all you want to do is lay down and think for awhile. Try not to cry.
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Yes I've been really bored... bleh
| @imee go bye bye @ 8:37 p.m |
So many things are bothering me, but its all okay now because Becky called me!! :D.. I'm so happy now.. I've missed her sooo much!
On another note: Last night I had one of the nicest dreams I've ever had. About a guy I just met this year on a trip. He lives in quincy, and I haven't seen him in a while, but I had one of the sweetest dreams about him last night. I dreamt I was up in my room and I heard my mom call me from downstairs because someone was at our house to see me. So I go to the stairs and look down and Andrew is here with his dad or something and we both run for eachother and hug eachother. And thers more but I'm not telling anyone about that.. haha.. grr and no its not what you think. :p.. blah.. I'm hittin the sack.
| @imee go bye bye @ 11:08 p.m |
The past few days have been the most boring days of my life. I had my computer fixed up and updated, the guy found 12 viruses on my computer and he thought it was amazing that my computer was even running. Yeah, it's a fighter, just like me and all my other crap.
Its been a couple weeks since I talked to Becky, and I really wish I could talk to her now. I feel hopeless and unloved again. And the sickest part is I'm not even unloved at all. Alot of people the past week have been trying to contact me, a few friends. But I'm finding I don't have the patience to put up with them, and that is even more terrible than it sounds. I don't know what is wrong with me, I always push people away. The people I want to be close to don't care about me at all, and the people I don't want to be around never go away. I've been so bored that I've even started talking to people I don't want to, and then they find me annoying and don't want to talk to me. I think I'm just a really boring person, well, I have nothing to say because I'm at this damned computer all day. I love to be on the go all the time but I can't, I think if I do ever start a career in music I'll love never having to be in one place for too long. I like being on the go and meeting new people, I get bored with the same things too quickly. When I'm around new people I feel this ease. When you first meet people there's not any pressuse to tell them you're inner thoughts or feelings, when you want to get close to someone and tell them things, that's where I have trouble. If I were on the go I wouldn't have to get close to anyone. And here I am thinking about running away from my problems again. I can't open up to people, I'm afraid. I don't know what I'm afraid of, mabye I'm afraid they'll use things I tell them against me, or laugh at me, or be afraid. I don't know.
| @imee go bye bye @ 11:19 p.m |
Well I got back from oregon a few days ago, that was pretty fun. I might put some pictures up from it later. Last night I was up until like 3:00 watching fireworks, it was awsome. My friend Greg and I sat and watched all he little kids run around with sparklers from up on a hill. Nothing much else has happened in my boring life and I still need to go and call back all the people that called me while I was gone.
Yesterday I also went shopping and bought a bunch of food for my friend Becky who is in Michigan. I'm sending her a care package because the camp she is at has terrible food... I miss her so much.
| @imee go bye bye @ 3:32 p.m |
