I really feel selfish. I have so many people who care about me... I have the world, but someohow I still find a way to be unhappy. but I keep smiling to keep other people happy.. somehow my happiness effects them too. So I'll keep wearing a fake smile on my face and pretend to be happy for their sake. Then no one will notice when I'm gone.
| @imee go bye bye @ 2:04 a.m |
I remeber telling myself that I wouldn't care about what people thought of me anymore. I would be me, and not care about the people who turn their backs on me placing some sort of "dangerous" lable on me. But I do care, and somewhere in my shallow mind it hurts when people turn away from me. Some times I just want to say "fuck them all!" but my in securities say to be something something im not; acceptable, something acceptable in societies eyes. The will for human companionship is so strong, even I cant deny that I want someone to love. So I'll force myself to be someone im not untill im barley grasping my sanity. Why do I care so much?
| @imee go bye bye @ 9:55 p.m |
