DEFINITELY NOT FOR YOUNGER VIEWERS.
Warning, sensative subjects and extreme language, not for the easily offended.
by: Adam Smith
why does my life suck
why does my life suck
why does my life suck
why does my life suck
why does my life suck
my life sucks
because
i have no car
i have no life
i'm trying to get a life
i'm failing
more than just at getting a life
i bet i'm failing school
econ
hell
i bet i'm failing life
as a whole
life in general
failed
damnit
why the hell does my life suck so fucking bad
i wake up make some noises then go back to bed
thats about it
god damn
this planet is out to get me
i swear
fuck
fucking a
i can't get a girl
i can't figure out why
every try fails
what the hell am i doing wrong
i feel like a failure
in everything
life
school
people
sports
i can't win a race
i can't do crap
i can feel sorry for myself and joke with my friends
few as they are
and thats about it
damn damnit damn it all to hell
i need a girl
a car
a life
friends
someone to take care of me
someone to love me
someone to hold me
someone to listen to me
someone beautiful
someone i can talk to
someone who will talk to me
someone nice
someone kind
someone smart
someone friendly
someone open
someone single
fokkin a
so tired
of this life
end this endless torture session
take me now
shoot me
cut me
beat me
burn me
help me
save me from myself
save me from life
save me from the world
give me the magical elixer of eternal A's
what must i do to make it in this world
i want to go back
do it again
try it all again
18 years is both too long and all to short
for a childhood
fuck this planet
this world can take it's rules
it's regulations
it's social norms
it's social pressures
it's needs
wants
urges
feelings
everything
it can take it all
you can take it all
and shove it
up
your
fucking
ass
you
piece
of
shit!
so tired
and sick
exhausted
i sprinted through my childhood
tried to slow down
before the end
linger longer
i can't
too much momentum
pulling me on
freight train
breaks are blown
cant we just go back
put it in reverse
i want to be 14 again
a freshman
come to high school
make a name
burn my computer
ace the tests
score the winning point
win the game
save the day
rescue someone
rescue people
rescue myself
from myself
i fucked myself
my own mistakes
cost me 4 years of boredom
of torture
i'm so tired
i want to sleep
but i can't
i have to move
keep on moving
push on
force my way
break the barriers
but they're so strong
i can't crack them
they're in my way
full speed into a brick wall
can't i go back
i hate my life
i hate my life
i hate my life
my life has sucked
four years
four years of hell
could have been
four years of heaven
but it was not
it was hell
i hate my life
i hate my life so much
fuck
fuck
fuck
fuck
fuck
fuck
fuck
fuck
fuck
fuck
fuck
fuck
give me a car
and a girl
a beautiful girl
a pretty girl
a cute girl
a nice girl
a funny girl
a smart girl
almost any girl
i would take her
make her safe
she would save me
give me a car
i would be happy as well
i could go
find a girl
make her mine
make her safe
make her happy
make her smile
make her content
she would do the same to me
we could go to the beach
sit on the bench
watch the sun set
walk by the water
skip stones
hold each other
kiss
kiss in the red light of the setting sun
sit together
hold each other
be happy
whisper sweet nothings to each other
she could breathe life into me
into my life
into my heart
into my mind
inspire me
i could write again
draw
i could work
i would have something
something to work for
someone to work for
someone to make happy
by any means i could
do whatever it took
to make her happy
please her
cheer her
we could take walks in the forest
follow the trail
the one that doesn't have an end
keep walking
hand in hand
silent
comfortable with each other
and ourselves
we could stop
i could touch her
caress her
hold her
she would hold me
her hair
beautiful
cascading
like a waterfall
over her shoulders
down her back
i would hold her
hold her close
kiss her deeply
our lips together
burning together
silent together
held together
no thought
only the moment
the kiss
the one kiss
that one magical kiss
perfect
in every way
the moment
we could be one
doing nothing but standing there
kissing
holding each other
our souls entwined
nothing but the moment
the perfect moment
the crystaline moment
a dimond in time
inscrutable
untouchable
invincible
a fine gem
a perfect 10
rubies
emeralds
one emotion
love
joy
contentment
happiness
all in one emotion
one moment
one eternal moment
an hour
a minute
or a bare second
all one moment
all the same
and yet not
as i hold her close and kiss her
then we seperate
finally
after eternity has come and gone
the apocalypse took our bodies
and still we are here
in the forest
no time has passed
in that holiest of moments
now preserved
perfectly
every aspect
every feeling of her lips against mine
her body against mine
her hips
her stomach
her breasts
her legs
the grass under my feet
all
the smell
her smell
the flowers' smell
all
perfect
preserved
in the amber of my memory
until i die
that is but a fantasy
a fairy tale
for now
i wish it were true
i want to make it true
but what chance is there of that
i will try
i swear to try
but who
what girl
what girl would give me this chance
to make her happy
to show her who i am
how i love
how perfect we can be
together
i do not know
i cannot find her
there are girls
i could show them
but they are taken far away
distant
behind the locked doors of their own loves
why
why must it be so