I have been sick for a week now.  I have no idea whats going around, but it has gotten me and I might have passed it on.  Besides that I am in one of those moods where, if I didnt exist,  I would probably feel better....wait....I'd probably have no feelings, which at this point is just fine.  On top of worrying if I am going to ever be out of debt, get my assistant to understand that she is exactly what she is, waiting for the housekeeper to come back from vacation and wondering if I should keep her - I am trying to keep back my tears, smile at my students and pretend nothing eles is wrong. But it is.
I often pride myself over being pretty balanced when it comes to life.  But right now - its not happening.  I have taken some serious chances when its been hard too, and  nowI am hoping someone will take a chance on me.  Hoping someone will give you a chance...in anything...is a commitment that one cannot take lightly.  I am ready to commit to proving myself.  

Proving Myself---
Those two words pretty much got me pretty far. (smiling...wow finally smiling)  Ive been pretty sucessful in the past...maybe there is hope.