| I started to cry. I was so confused. "I don't know." I said. Jeff grabbed me and held me in his arms. He comforted me. "It's okay, Trish. It's okay. I'm here. I'm not going anywhere." Jay took Jeff's arms off of me. "Let me comfort her. She needs me now." Jeff nodded. "Look, man, we've been good friends ever since Matt and I got in this business. I realize you and Trish miss each other but can you promise Denise and myself something?" "Sure, Jeff." "Promise me that I won't lose Trish and promise Denise that she won't lose you. If you can promise us that, then we don't need to be here. Denise and I are only making it harder for you and Trish to deal with this situation." Jeff was so considerate of mine and Jay's feelings. I loved him so much. "I promise you, Jeff, on my life that we will always be together, I love you." I said. I pulled Jeff in my arms and kissed him. "I promised you with that ring, Denise, that I would never ever leave you no matter what. I love you." Jay said. Jay kissed Denise. Jeff ended the kiss. Denise ended their kiss. "You two just straighten things out. Jason Reso, don't you dare hurt her or I'll kill you with my bare hands." Jeff said. "Same for you, Trish." Denise said. "I won't hurt her, Jeff. I already did that before. I won't do it again." Jay shook Jeff's hand. I shook Denise's hand. They left the room. Now, it was just me and Jay. The room was filled with silence. We just looked in each other's eyes. Jay got up and took my hand. "Trish, I apologize for leaving you that day. I shouldn't have left without saying goodbye." "Jay, it was my fault. I shouldn't have over reacted but Jay, are we friends or lovers?" "We're not friends. Maybe this can answer your question." Jay sat beside me and kissed me. I didn't know what to do. I wanted to push him away but then I realized, now we were finally saying goodbye As Jay was kissing me (and as I was enjoying it,) I was wondering if we saying goodbye or hello. This kiss is what I've always wanted ever since Jay left me that day. Damn, he knew how to kiss. I pulled away. "Jay, are we saying goodbye or hello?" "Goodbye." I smiled. This whole thing was finally over. "Is it over, Jay?" "Yeah, it's over. We're not friends, we're not lovers... we're best friends." "I'll always love you, Jay." "Same here." I gave Jay a hug. It was a shame that our relationship couldn't last. It could've have been a good one. If I wasn't with Jeff and if he wasn't with Denise, I'm pretty sure we would have given our relationship another try. Times had changed. "Now, tell me when is the wedding." "I guess you should know if you're gonna be a bridesmaid." "Are you serious? Thank you, Jay! I love weddings. Can Jeff be a groomsmen?" "Sure. The wedding's gonna be sometime soon." "Cool. Jay, can I ask you something?" "Sure, go ahead." "Do you think Jeff and I will last?" "Duh! Of course you will. I think we learned from the mistakes we made in our relationship is to not make them again. I mean, I'm engaged to Denise. I'm pretty sure you'll be engaged to Jeff sooner or later." Jay said. "You really think so?" "Yeah." "I hope you're right. I love Jeff so much. It really hurt for me to have to put him through all this drama. He didn't deserve it. He's so good to me. I would love to spend the rest of my life with him." "I'll tell him you said that." "Don't tell him! Time will tell." We laughed. I realized that Jay and I were best friends and nothing was gonna change that. Still, the emptiness for missing Jay would never end. "We needed to have this conversation, Trish." "I know and I couldn't be more happier." I said. We got up and walked to the door. We hugged one last time. This was finally goodbye. Now, we would be going our separate ways, the right way. There was no longer a question to if Jay and I were friends or lovers. We were best friends. "If you need anything, I'm here." Jay said. "I know. That's why I fell in love with you four years ago." "I love you too, Trish." I opened the door and walked to Jeff's room and Jay walked the other way to his room. Right before, I opened the door, I whispered to myself. "Thank God this is over." The End |