Friends forever?
I thought friends forever meant just that! But if it does forever is incredibly short.
Rory and me were best friends and, I thought, friends forever but we fell out! On the 27th of September 2002 I went to say hi at break as I usually did everyday but he just said something like "Oh the freak’s here." And that’s it he had stopped talking to me. I went to the next lesson close to tears and in that lesson those tears fell and many more at many times. It’s now the 3rd of October and I think that maybe we may have a chance at becoming friends. I rang him earlier and he talked to me until I asked him why he fell out with me, he was silent for a while then just said, "Fuck off." And hung up. I still love him from ages ago and I’m wishing and hoping we can regain the friendship we once had.
That’s the facts, this is the story.
Friends are?
My best friend is Rory Percival but not only is he my best friend he’s my boyfriend as well! I love him with all my heart and have done for a long time. Not that long ago he fell out with me but we talked things out, made up and later out. Last week was his birthday we went to the cinema on the day, but missed most of the film doing more ‘important things’.
That Saturday was a party at his house. I’d been with him, gone home and got changed and I arrived at his house, early, at 2:00pm. He kissed me then stepped back, looked me up and down and breathed "Wow!" then kissed me again.
I was wearing my flame jeans, the design of which I had done, my flame skatebelt, black tightish top and flame hoodie (I like flames).
"Your hot stuff!" he said laughing
"Love the pun." I replied sarcastically, but jokeily.
"Sorry babe. Come in, come upstairs." He said cheekily.
"You’ve had your presents, so no to what your thinking, not now anyway." I said changing my seriousness into a smile. He smiled, laughed and I melted.
We went upstairs, I sat on his bed while he got undressed to his boxers.
"Play on the PS2 while I get a shower. Ok?" he said.
"Sure" I breathed, open eyed and mouthed. I played on the PS2 for 20 mins. He came back in a towel and I closed my eyes.
"Charlie?" he said.
"Yeah." I said opening my eyes. He was knelt at the end of the bed, in his boxers, looking down at me, as I was laid on my back.
"Why’d you close your eyes?" he asked lying down next to me.
"I……just thought I should." I said, unsure.
"Were going out, we have been for awhile but yet you still close your eyes." He said disbelieving.
"Well I don’t want to do anything I’m not allowed." I said looking at him with total love.
"Impossible. Everything’s allowed!" he said putting his arm over me and I just sighed, happily. He moved his hand down and kissed me for about 5 mins, breathing occasionally.
"Yuck your hairs all wet." I said laughing
"Sorry." He replied in the same tone. Then he looked round his room and said.
"It’s to tidy in here it needs more clothes on the floor." He took off my hoodie and threw it on the floor. "A bit better, but still to tidy." He said and started to undo my jeans.
"Rory, stop it." I said sounding disappointed with myself "I said maybe later."
"It is later." He said hopefully.
"Look, we don’t know when your mums getting back and people will be coming round before too long. I’m sorry babe, maybe another time. Ok?" I said, sorryness in my voice.
"Ok, I guess." He said with a sigh. "I love you. You know that right? I’m not just saying that, ive never felt this strongly about anyone."
"I love you too!" I replied with a smile. "Now get some clothes on, you must be freezing."
He got off the bed, stood up and went to his drawers. I stood up, followed and kissed the back of his neck just to show I wasn’t at all annoyed. He kissed me back and pulled a pair of new Baggies out of the drawer while I went back and sat on the bed. He put the Baggies on, then went to get the T-shirt which I’d got him as part of his present. He looked at it, smiled and pulled it on. Then came and sat next to me on the bed.
"Where we gonna go from here, hey?" he asked.
"I dunno but I do know I hope it’s forward and not back. I don’t ever want to ever break up." I replied.
He seemed happy and went over to his drawers again, opened one, rummaged around and brought something out. He came and sat next to me again. He gave me a flatish red box.
"What's this?" I asked.
"Open it." He said. I opened the box and inside was a chain with a Chinese symbol pendant. "It means love." He said.
"Why? Its your birthday, not mine." I said confused.
"You’re the best gift I could ever have." He said, "I’d be so happy if you’d wear this! As long as you wear it, it means you love me and it’s a sort of long-time engagement thing, if you’ll accept it in that way, if not it’s just a gift of my love."
"Thankyou so much!" I said throwing my arms round his neck. He hugged me back, he put the necklace round my neck and I said "I accept it in every way and will wear it forever. Does this mean you want to marry me when were old enough?"
"Yes. If you want to. I love you so much I want to live with you ‘till were old and any kids we chose to have, have left long ago and then I want to, when I die, die at your side." He said seriously.
"Oh my god!" I said
"What've I done? Sorry if I scared you." He said worried that his commitment had scared me off.
"I love you so much and I couldn’t be happier." I said as I burst into tears of happiness.
I pulled myself back together just before his mum returned with Sam, Liam and shopping.
"Rory!" she shouted. He kissed me softly on the lips and said
"Come on" then set off downstairs. I followed.
We sorted everything out and the party went great. I showed Lou my necklace quietly and told her just before Rory came up, pulled me closer to him and kissed me very romantically sweeping me down the picking me back to my feet.
"I missed you." He told me.
"We spoke about a minute ago." I said smiling
"I still missed you!" he said grabbing my hand and setting of to the kitchen as his Puppy Dog I had to follow.
"What were you talking to Lou about?" he asked opening a bottle of VB and offering it to me. I took it and as he opened another bottle for himself I said
"I was just showing her my necklace and telling her ‘bout earlier, missing out the part where I said no when you started undoing my jeans. Why do you always question what we talk about? We ARE best mates, we can talk about whatever we want and you shouldn’t need to question it!" I said starting to get annoyed.
"Chill! I’m sorry! I just ask. I trust you! If it bothers you I won’t ask." He said very apologetically.
"It’s ok. I'm not annoyed. I can’t get mad at you." I said calm now. He kissed me again then stared deep into my eyes.
"Why didn’t I ask you out ages ago?" he asked himself.
At about 1am everyone but Adam Lou and me left. Adam and Lou slept on Rory’s bedroom floor, very close. Lou had told me earlier that Adam had asked her out again and that she hoped they could have the same as Rory and me.
I slept in the single bed, right next to Rory. Every time I moved, he moved to stay as close to me as possible. Most of the time he had his hand up my pyjama top, but I kept my bottoms on! Much to his disappointment.
That was the happiest night of my life. He was so gorgeously warm next to me and my pendant felt so comfortable on my chest with the chain gently wrapped around my neck. ‘I will never take it off.’ I thought as I fell asleep.
It’s still on my neck. It never comes off, which has caused a few arguments with Miss. Down (my PE teacher). If I'm ever upset I just touch it and think of him, my baby. I couldn’t love him more and my life with him is near to perfect.
Charlie Dean 3rd November 2002
Authors note: You wouldn’t believe how much I wish this could come true. I've written this non-stop, I didn’t need to pause for thought it just flowed and now my wrist really aches. I LOVE RORY JAMES PERCIVAL!!!
N.B. the original was hand written that’s why it says my wrist really aches!