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  You Only See What Your Eyes Want To See  

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Thanks to Geocities and their capitalistic bullshit, my page will now be hosted at blogspot at this address. Can you tell I am freaking thrilled about this nonsense!

  c jw @ 12:02 PM


3.6.2002  

 



  c jw @ 12:01 PM



 
Hell YES! (That is a great pic of her too...)

Who's Your Inner Music Industry Diva? Find out @ She's Crafty

  c jw @ 2:15 AM


3.3.2002  

 

Which Action Star Are You? Find out @ She's Crafty

  c jw @ 2:01 AM



 

Who's Your 80s Movie Icon Alter-Ego? Find out @ She's Crafty

It might be the answer...and, hey, I'm Winona Ryder, I am going to go steal some shit...

  c jw @ 7:31 PM


3.1.2002  

 


Which "Saved By The Bell" Character Are You?


  c jw @ 7:25 PM


2.27.2002  

 
A Completely useless and pointless test!



  c jw @ 5:42 PM



 
Bought the new Alanis CD - Under Rug Swept. It is pretty good; although, not as good as Jagged Little Pill. But, I think that CD carries a stigma of being a cult classic. When it was released, we were all angst filled teenagers. We loved the angry, vengeful music because that is what we were. It was the perfect album for a perfect time. I don't think Alanis will ever be able to top it. All we can do is respect what she does today. Under Rug Swept is worth the 13 bucks!

  c jw @ 3:15 PM



 

Just make sure you don't tell on me especially to members of your family
We best keep this to ourselves and not tell any members of our inner posse
I wish I could tell the world cuz you're such a pretty thing when you're done up properly
I might want to marry you one day if you watch that weight and keep your firm body

Ooh this could be messy and
Ooh I don't seem to mind
Ooh don't go telling everybody
And overlook this supposed crime

- Alanis Morisette



  c jw @ 3:10 PM



 

You are Kermit!
Though you're technically the star, you're pretty mellow and don't mind letting others share the spotlight. You are also something of a dreamer.



  c jw @ 1:50 AM


2.25.2002  

 
Ha ha ha, yeah....


  c jw @ 1:47 AM



 
YES!

  c jw @ 2:22 AM


2.24.2002  

 




take the which one of the trading spaces cast are you? quiz!



  c jw @ 2:18 AM



 
My friend Tracy started a blog. She is hilarious...it is linked to the left..go check her out!

  c jw @ 1:58 AM


2.22.2002  

 
Why does everyone comment on Jule's page, but no one hardly ever comments on mine???? Grr....

  c jw @ 7:32 PM


2.20.2002  

 
Good Gawd, woman, move in or go home!

  c jw @ 7:26 PM



 



find your queer
as folk personality
!



  c jw @ 5:22 AM



 
God, don't let it happen to me!
25 signs that you have grown up... ( aka .... getting old )
1. Your potted plants are alive. And you can't smoke a one of them.
2. Having sex in a twin-sized bed is absurd.
3. You keep more food than beer in the fridge.
4. 6:00 AM is when you get up, not when you go to sleep.
5. You hear your favorite song on an elevator.
6. You carry an umbrella. You watch the Weather Channel.
7. Your friends marry and divorce instead of hookup and breakup.
8. You go from 130 days of vacation time to 7.
9. Jeans and a sweater no longer qualify as 'dressed up.'
10. You're the one calling the police because those darn kids next
door don't know how to turn down the stereo.
11. Older relatives feel comfortable telling sex jokes around you.
12. You don't know what time Taco Bell closes anymore.
13. Your car insurance goes down and your car payments go up.
14. You feed your dog Science Diet instead of McDonald's.
15. Sleeping on the couch makes your back hurt.
16. You no longer take naps from noon to 6 p.m.
17. Dinner and a movie - the whole date instead of the beginning of
one.
18. Eating a basket of chicken wings at 3 a.m. would severely upset,
rather than settle, your stomach.
19. You go to the drugstore for Ibuprofen and antacids, not condoms
and pregnancy test kits.
20. A $4.00 bottle of wine is no longer 'pretty good stuff.'
21. You actually eat breakfast foods at breakfast time.
22. "I just can't drink the way I used to," replaces "I'm never going
to drink that much again."
23. Over 90% of the time you spend in front of a computer is for real
work.
24. You don't drink at home to save money before going to a bar.
25. You read this entire list looking for one sign that doesn't apply
to you!

  c jw @ 4:02 AM



 
While I was taking my test today with my favorite prof, I stayed awhile to talk with her. She is such an awesome person! She had these Pepperidge Farm cookies. They were called Desert something (yes, I meant desert, not dessert). We chowed on the cookies and had an interesting discussion. We talked a little about the class, but then got started talking about the role of Africana studies (my minor) in the public school and university system.

The culture and history of many different ethnic groups is often taught and celebrated. However, this is typically not the case with africana studies. It is probably the largest victim of adademic subversion - that is it is deemed less necessary or important than other curricula. Anyhoo, we talked about how administrators are so concerned with giving their students a well rounded education, yet they continue to deny their students the knowledge or Africans and African-Americans. This lack of education is what causes racism in this world. When one has never been exposed to something/someone they become ignorant of that person/thing. When someone has not been exposed to black people and/or are not taught about their ethnicity, ignorance reigns. People are likely to "put down" something they do not know. If we opened up our school to africana curriculm, perhaps our problems of racial tension would be eased. If you consider yourself to be prejudice/racist/homophobic or anything of the sort, educate yourself about what you do not understand. What you learn just might blow your mind.

  c jw @ 2:33 AM



 
My puter got some new toys this weekend. I was in Cleveland visiting Kim and we went shopping at Micro Center. I found the most perfect computer case. A few weeks ago my floppy drive mysteriously broke and I couldn't figure out why. Whle examining the bag that I had, I realized maybe it wasn't protecting the computer enough. So, I figured that before the screen or something REALLY expensive breaks, i should just dish out the money and get the new bag. It is an awesome Case Logic bag! Also, I have been wanting an extra keyboard. Sometimes when you are typing awhile, the small laptop keyboard starts to hurt your wrists. I found one for 3.99! So yay! Puter got new stuff!

  c jw @ 12:03 AM


2.19.2002  

 

If you missed the Janet Jackson Live concert on HBO, you have to catch it! It is uh-maz-ing! I loooove this girl...she sings new stuff and old stuff, including "miss you much" and my favorite all time Janet song "again" off her "janet." album. By the way, if anyonehas that CD and wants to get rid of it, I'll be happy to take it off your hands...

  c jw @ 11:33 PM


2.18.2002  

 
Dude...what is our world coming to...what a moron.......

  c jw @ 4:30 AM


2.16.2002  

 
Let's Ponder, Part I
If quitters never win, and winners never quit, what fool came up with, "Quit while you're ahead"?
I was thinking that women should put pictures of missing husbands on beer cans.
I thought about how mothers feed their babies with little tiny spoons and forks so I wonder what Chinese mothers use. Perhaps
toothpicks?
Employment application blanks always ask who is to be notified in case of an emergency. I think you should write. A Good Doctor.
Before they invented drawing boards, what did they go back to?
How is it possible to have a civil war?
If all the world is a stage, where is the audience sitting?
If love is blind, why is lingerie so popular?
If you ate pasta and antipasto, would you still be hungry?
If you try to fail, and succeed, which have you done?
Why are hemorrhoids called "hemorrhoids" instead of "asteroids"?

  c jw @ 5:06 AM


2.15.2002  

 
I have been hearing from everyone how tank tops are the best thing in the world to sleep in. So, while I was at Wal-Mart today I found one for like 5 bucks. I must say, it is wonderful. I think I would look pretty damn good in it to if I wasn't so damn fat. Is Charla actually considering a diet? Hummm.....maybe this is a breakthrough...I'll go get a few cookies while I decide...

  c jw @ 12:04 AM



 
Happy Valentine's Day

  c jw @ 7:12 AM


2.14.2002  

 
Perspective on life according to George Costanza:
"The most unfair thing about life is the way it ends. I
mean, life is tough. It takes up a lot of your time. What
do you get at the end of it? A death. What's that, a bonus?!?

I think the life cycle is all backwards. You should die first,
get it out of the way. Then you go live in an old age home.
You get kicked out for being too healthy, go collect your
pension, then, when you start work, you get a gold watch on
your first day. You work forty years until you're young enough
to enjoy your retirement. You drink alcohol, you party, and
you get ready for High School. You go to primary school, you
become a kid, you play, you have no responsibilities, you
become a little baby, you go back, you spend your last 9
months floating with luxuries like central heating, spa, room
service on tap, then you finish off as an orgasm!! Amen."

  c jw @ 12:05 AM



 
Speaking of Jewel songs, this is my fav off the new CD:

Till We Run Out Of Road

It's leavin' time again
I'm headed out with all my friends
It's a roll of the dice
I've never thought twice about the way I've been spending my time
Trying my guts out for every dime
Working in an office building tall
Don't know who's next to you at all
But being out here
The blood, the guts, the beer is a test
Only time will tell
Brings you close, man
Closer than hell

We're leaving, we're leaving again
Can't recall where all we've been
Guess we'll just go
Go till we're too old
Or we run out of road

The other day I talked to Lou
He quit back in '92
Says he misses it bad
Those were the best times we ever had
He said, "Give it hell till the end
'Cause once you quit you can't get it back again

Expensive cabs and shitty food
Washed down with cancelled flights
Missed wake-up calls
Missed holidays
You miss your boy and wife
All the late night drives that cause the dawn to strike you like a knife
Hey man, this is a beautiful life

  c jw @ 4:58 AM


2.13.2002  

 


Standing Still
Which Jewel song are you most like? Find out!



  c jw @ 4:53 AM



 

Which Sex and the City Character Are You? Find out @ She's Crafty

  c jw @ 4:46 AM



 
HOW TO IMPRESS A WOMAN
Wine her, Dine her, Call her, Hug her, Hold her, Surprise her, Compliment her, Smile at her, Laugh with her, Cry with her, Cuddle with her, Shop with her, Give her jewelry, Buy her flowers, Hold her hand, Write love letters to her, Go the end of the earth and back again for her.

HOW TO IMPRESS A MAN
Show up naked,
Bring beer.

  c jw @ 11:44 PM


2.12.2002  

 
I am so caught up in the olympics this year. I feel bad, in a way, for Picabo Street. She is an awesome skier; I have loved her for years. After her comeback from her horrible accident in Nagano, I was really pushing for her tonight. But, I guess it just wasn't to be. Oh well, she is still probably the best female skier in the US.

Did anyone catch the pairs figure skating last night? Sele and Pelltier SO deserved the gold. Did you notice that convieniently the Russian judge put them in 2nd place? Humm...wonder why...you better believe some shady shit went down there. Everyone saw that they were better than that ugly-ass Russian pair...anyway....

Moguls scare me. I think joint replacement companies should invest in advertising at Mogul events...those people are knee replacements waiting to happen...

  c jw @ 8:47 PM



 
I tried the whole colorgenics thing too...here is my profile:

You are trying to establish yourself and make an impact despite the fact that everything around you seems to be against you .. putting up barriers .., but don't be unduly concerned ... you have the right ideas and come what may, they will soon be manifested and appreciated.

Always anxious to accept the role of the leader, as indeed you often work well with people, but try to stay out of the limelight. You'd like a life of ease with no one to rock the boat... and someone who understands you is so important in your life...

The way things are at this time it is necessary to "go slow". All the pleasures that you have anticipated should be left in abeyance until some future date...But all is not lost...You are able to derive and achieve considerable gratification to someone quite close to you...

Recent disappointment has led you to become truly introverted. You are becoming suspicious of everybody and consequently you now feel that you are unable to trust anybody..Unfortunately it would appear that you are curbing your natural enthusiasm and imaginative nature ... perhaps this is because you are fearful that you may become over enthused and find that you could possibly be carried away by wishful thinking... You are keeping your distance to see whether attitudes towards you are sincere - but this watchfulness could easily develop into suspicion and distrust.

You are being very dogmatic... Insisting that there is to be absolutely no equivocation whatsoever about your achievements and accomplishments.

  c jw @ 7:55 PM



 
Wouldn't it be great if both of these would actually happen when you are surfing the net....

  c jw @ 7:13 AM



 
Scott Lowell who plays "Ted" on Queer as Folk has a blog! It is rather interesting as well....geesh does everyone have one.....

  c jw @ 4:31 AM



 
The union is sort of scaring me. Something smells like it is burning and the fire alarm lights are flashing, but everyone is just sitting around...great, we are all going to die!

  c jw @ 10:29 AM


2.7.2002  

 
I thought this was great!

_IF WOMEN DRINK_:
Drink : Beer.
Personality : Casual, low maintenance; down to earth.

Drink : Blender drinks with umbrella.
Personality: Flaky, annoying, dizzy, and a pain in the ass.

Drink : Mixed drinks - no umbrellas
Personality: Mature, has picky taste; knows what she wants.

Drink : Wine - (bottled not 4 litre cask)
Personality: Conservative and classy, sophisticated

Drink : Bacardi Breezer, Smirnoff ice, Vodka mule, etc
Personality: Easy; thinks she is trendy and sophisticated...has absolutely no clue.

Drink : Baileys.
Personality : Annoying voice, bit of a tart.

Drink : Shots (Vodka, Aftershock etc.).
Personality : Hanging with male pals or looking to get drunk...and naked.
Approach : Easiest hit in the pub. Nothing to do but wait.

_IF MEN DRINK_ - As always, very simple and clear cut:
Cider : He's probably under-aged and wants to get laid.
Cheap Domestic Beer : Poor/student and wants to get laid.
Premium Local Beer : He likes good beer and wants to get laid
Bitter : He's old, he likes good beer and wants to get laid.
Imported Beer : He likes expensive beer and wants to get laid
Guinness : The man is a rapist and will get laid one way or another.
Wine: He's hoping that the wine thing will give him a sophisticated image and help him get laid.
Vodka or Brandy : Extremely horny hound, would shag a warm scarf. Desperate to get laid.
Port : Thinks he's sophisticated, secretly likes men and wants to get laid.
Whisky : He doesn't give two shits about anything and will hit anyone who will get in his way of getting laid.
Jack Daniels : Not as masculine as the whisky drinker,knows all about feminine activities (knitting, crochet etc.) to weasel himself into getting laid.
Tequila : Likes fighting almost as much as getting laid.
Bacardi Breezer, Smirnoff ice, Vodka mule, etc: He's GAY

  c jw @ 6:52 PM


2.6.2002  

 
Perfect!

See what Care Bear you are.


  c jw @ 6:44 PM



 
LOL...someone found my page by searching "Sally+Field+movie+quotes"...Steel magnolias baby!

  c jw @ 6:27 PM



 
Drama in the Lab
I am in the union computer lab and there is a really digusting guy sitting next to me! He keeps choking (not coughing, choking) and blowing his nose LOUDLY! EW, god I am going to catch the beubonic plague or "something kinda like it"....and at the table next to me there is a couple fighting...not sure, why they are continuing to fight in a quiet computer lab, but they are. They are making an attempt to keep their voices low, but it is not working too well. Ha Ha she just stormed away...you go girl!

  c jw @ 6:26 PM



 
OMG! My really good friend Jess is pregnant! yay! She is married and stuff and she wanted kids so..I am so happy for them!

  c jw @ 6:23 PM



 
I missed The Real World again tonight. I was actually cleaning my apt instead - I totally forgot it was on. See, ya wonder why i never clean...it throws off my whole life...

  c jw @ 3:22 AM



 
Yay! John Grisham is coming out with a new suspense/law novel. It is about time! His A Painted House blew and I couldn't even get through Skipping Christmas and it was only 100 pages long. The new one is called The Summons...anyone know when it comes out?

  c jw @ 3:00 AM



 

So break me
Take me
Just let me fill your arms again
Break me
I'll let you make me
Just let me feel your love again -Jewel


  c jw @ 1:55 AM



 



Take the What
animal best portrays your sexual appetite??
Quiz



  c jw @ 1:49 AM


2.2.2002  

 
Well, I am trying out Juno internet service for awhile. Right now I am trying their free service, which is alright. There is an annoying advertisement banner though. Oh well, if I decide to stay with Juno good service is only 9.95 a month - much cheaper than AOL! AOL is evil!

  c jw @ 4:37 AM


1.31.2002  

 

I will meet you in some place
Where the light lends itself to soft repose
I will let you undress me
But I warn you, I have thorns like any rose
And you could hurt me with your bare hands
You could hurt me using the sharp end of what you say
But I am lost to you now
There's no amount of reason to save me

So break me
Take me
Just let me fill your arms again
Break me
I'll let you make me
Just let me feel your love again
-From "break Me" by Jewel



  c jw @ 2:07 AM



 
Ok, I am finished being a nerd. History, government and patriotism are things that I am very passionate about, and everyone needs to have a passion of some sort.

  c jw @ 2:59 PM


1.30.2002  

 
I have to disagree with Kim about the State of The Union Address last night. Yes, there were many occurances of applause and yes, at times it did seem like a pep rally. But also, you must understand that Bush has the higest approval rating since FDR in 1944. I think it is very exciting to see our legislature (along with the supreme court and cabinet members) so pumped about our nation and our President. Now, no I did not vote for the man. At the time, I thought Al Gore would make a much better President. That is neither here nor there now. Bush is our president and I support his actions and words 100%. At this point he will have my vote in 2004. Not since World War II, have we had such a sense of national pride and patriotism in our country. This is the first time our generation has witnessed something like this - something that values libery and freedom over all else. What more could we ask for? The higest ideals of an idea called America that was conceived in 1776 are still being spoken and practiced in 2002. Nothing is cooler than that!

  c jw @ 2:58 PM



 
In case y'all missed the President's State of the Union Address, you can read the transcript here.

  c jw @ 10:41 PM


1.29.2002  

 
I finally listened to my entire Dido CD today. Her music is really cool! So, for the next few days I might be posting a few lyrics...if you wanna hear a cool song go download "Don't think of me". It really grows on you after awhile.

  c jw @ 4:40 AM


1.27.2002  

 
How did I somehow miss the fact that Alanis Morisette did a cameo on SATC?

  c jw @ 1:00 AM


1.26.2002  

 
Makes 'ya wanna go bowling doesn't it?...all that hot communication!



  
c jw @ 3:05 AM


1.25.2002  

 
LMAO! Hey at least they are cute!


What obscure animal are you?

  c jw @ 2:44 PM


1.23.2002  

 
LMAO! Sometimes people sit in the computer lab with earphones on listening to music. However, the music is so loud everyone can still hear it. The dude across from me is listening to Cher. Yeah...like he isn't gay??

  c jw @ 2:40 PM



 
"That's it! I have found it, I am in hell!"
I can't take stupid freshmen anymore! The older you get, the more intolerable they become. This is my 8th semester and I can barely take it anymore. In my Geology lab this afternoon, the TA puts up an overhead that is in outline form. In other words, it was obviously notes that we are supposed to take. This ignorant freshman behind me raises his hand and asks "Would it be in our best interest to write this down?" AGHHH!!!! The TA replies, "uh, yeah." But did this moron leave it alone and start writing, no. He asks, "Do we have to write it down?" GOD! What the hell is wrong with people like that? This is college, grow up or get out! I did enjoy the TA's reply to the second question though. He said, "It's your grade not mine." I wonder who is failing that class, and with that attitude how many more?

  c jw @ 2:31 PM



 

How is the neighbor downstairs?
How is her temper this year?
I turned up your TV and stomped on the floor just for fun
I know we don't live here anymore
We bought an old house on the Danforth
She loves me and her body keeps me warm
I'm happy here
But this is where we used to live

Broke into the old apartment
Tore the phone out of the wall
Only memories, fading memories
Blending into dull tableaux

I want them back
I want them back



  c jw @ 12:17 AM



 

Drink me!

Which drink are you?


  c jw @ 3:05 PM


1.22.2002  

 
Well, it is about time!

  c jw @ 10:00 AM



 
Happy MLK Day!
This will be the day when all of God's children will be able to sing with a new meaning, "My country, 'tis of thee, sweet land of liberty, of thee I sing. Land where my fathers died, land of the pilgrim's pride, from every mountainside, let freedom ring." And if America is to be a great nation, this must become true. So let freedom ring from the prodigious hilltops of New Hampshire. Let freedom ring from the mighty mountains of New York. Let freedom ring from the heightening Alleghenies of Pennsylvania! Let freedom ring from the snowcapped Rockies of Colorado! Let freedom ring from the curvaceous peaks of California! But not only that; let freedom ring from Stone Mountain of Georgia! Let freedom ring from Lookout Mountain of Tennessee! Let freedom ring from every hill and every molehill of Mississippi. From every mountainside, let freedom ring.

When we let freedom ring, when we let it ring from every village and every hamlet, from every state and every city, we will be able to speed up that day when all of God's children, black men and white men, Jews and Gentiles, Protestants and Catholics, will be able to join hands and sing in the words of the old Negro spiritual, "Free at last! free at last! thank God Almighty, we are free at last!"

-Martin Luther King, Jr. (courtesy of)


  c jw @ 10:44 AM


1.21.2002  

 
My quote on Jule's Page was so great, I had to put it on my own too! BTW, people COMMENT!!!!

  c jw @ 2:24 PM


1.18.2002  

 
I am lovin' this high speed internet connection on campus...I may never go home!

  c jw @ 2:00 PM


1.16.2002  

 
I am sitting in our new student union, which I must say is really cool. The computer lab in here has all new black dells with flat screens...very cool! Classes suck as usual, I am so ready to be out of school. I wish to god this was my last semester - It would have been if I hadn't screwed around for 2 years. Oh well, other than classes it has been a pretty good day. Jule is at my apt - she BETTER be cleaning! I actually had a salad today for lunch. That is the first time I have ever eaten just a salad for lunch...oh well, I will stop boring you all with this intriguing commentary...

  c jw @ 1:56 PM


1.15.2002  
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