| My dearest...Can this be real? When my days and my nights Run together in one fluid stream Of thoughts of you... Are you the one I've been waiting for? For too many seasons, without answers, I've searched in vain, pushed aside the pain of emptiness. Too many glasses, "half empty", And still, unfulfilled to find my one true love. Just what are the chances? This thing we call "soulmates", must be true enough. I cannot live in a world where random chance Has the upper hand over attainable destiny. Over and over, I seem to be fighting demons, All for one purpose...To be united with my one perfect love. Many have come and gone in my life. Lovers and many friends, masquerading and parading, Yet never illuminating more than a tiny fracture of my soul. Society even allowed me to succumb to my doubts, Letting me abandon the prize, in exchange for a husband. I am breathing life's springtime breath anew. For I've been redeemed and saved it seems. The Gods have granted me another chance. They've given me a temporary wisdom to see things more clearly, From a more proper point of view. And how obvious as a knock on the door, A bolt of lightening, and a clap of thunder...Wake up !! Now is the chance to hear the bells ring, For the whole world to see and learn...LOVE is alive ! Demons can be slain, and my quest begin in earnest once more ! Should I wait and be proper? How long, would be fair? Does a newborn babe delay his first breath? Does a freed prisoner sit idly by, and not experience the joy Of re-awakened senses, re-kindled spirit, and a new life? Nor shall I dearest...I shall race into this world with simply this prayer. I will lead a full life and enjoy it to the hilt. My vision sharpened, my senses heightened, My spirit uplifted and protected...I know that now. My quest has begun and with a new sense of purpose. How...how can I fail? I will seek that prize that the Gods have built. My journey has not been a short one, seems all my life. I've known many emotions, some happiness, some pain, But mainly emptiness, lack of purpose...I won't go there again ! And now that I've met you...The flame is alive, Raging through my heart as a bonfire for my soul, drying my tears. That aching, desperate, unrequited desire for my soulmate... Yet...Here you are, plain as day, can it be you? My romantic twin? My companion for play? My sounding board for reason and craziness alike? Is it you? My unmistakable destiny-date? These words I could never say aloud, for I am a coward. My skills for true intimacy have been buried all these years. But I must explore and put this to the test, This is an amazing feeling that I never guessed Would ever befall me in a hundred lifetimes. Please dearest...I know this appears extreme. But there is nothing else that life can give to me. Will you take my hand and trust this gift? Will you explore the possibilities with finding a truth, That may cause our spirits and souls to uplift and unite? Can you join me on this journey? For only time will tell. For if that is the case, then the Gods elated, Will smile down on us and this miracle of meetings, And all may be right in this world once more, And our hearts may become filled, by knowing each other. There are no limits...Love can grow wings. Join forces with me, turning nightmares into dreams, Dragons into pussycats, raging torrents into streams. Let us try to forge our souls from the dust of So many past disappointments and heartaches only we understand. I promise you honesty...I promise I will listen, And to try to understand or compromise if we disagree. I promise you an open mind as well as my heart. We can strive to find new outlets to express what I think we already know... Soulmates are we...Our quests may be over...Our lives may have JUST begun ! Always and forever, Charlotte |
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