In a mid Summer night
I sat all alone pondering
what might have been
and what is to be
With all my imperfections
there are friends
and there are families
as well as my beloved
who stand strong
regardless how I erred
With each moment that passed
with each treasured memory of the past
I wished I could, I wished I could
return to the joy of the past
and Hugs the love of my life
and let these tears fall unrestraintly
With all that I wanted to be
with all that I shoul have been
do I smile for those who understands
or do I bear a grudge to whose who doesn't
with the passing time, and the passing clouds
I heard the wind breeze passed me gently
and imagining myself up above a mountain
I wonder who is living in a fantasy world...
Can't say that I have lived enough, for I have not !
Can't say that I hate this life, for I don not !
Can't say that I am giving up, for I can not !
Can't say that I neglect you, for I will not !
I love this life, and I so trully do
and with all the acquaintances that
somehow miraculously turned to friends,
that long-lasting friends with their comforting smiles
... this life, I love
... this life, is life lived best,
... with friends and families
... and this life, I am beginning to understand
By : Kk tsw (August 28,1999)