CONFESSIONS OF A "BROKEN SAINT"

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  Dear Lord, please help me to know what a HYPOCRITE I am. You told, “The hypocrites draw near to Me with their mouth, but their heart is far from Me.” Yes Lord, I am a hypocrite; how many times I prayed and praised You with my lips while my heart was somewhere else. Please forgive my hypocrisy and change me so that when I pray, my heart and soul are lost in You.

 

My gracious Lord, I am ashamed to confess that I am a LIAR before you. You exhorted that the one who says that he knows You, but keeps not Your commandments is a liar. Please have mercy on me and teach me to keep Your commandments so that I can be honest and truthful to You.

 

O my God, I am a MURDERER; for Your Holy Word warns that he that hates his brother is a murderer. Lord, some people in prison have committed only one murder; but dear Lord, I have committed this terrible sin many times. Often I kept hatred in my heart and murdered my brothers in Christ. Lord, have mercy on me, this wretched sinner, least worthy of any of Your forgiveness and mercy. Let every fibre of my being be filled with Your heavenly love in such a way that there will be no room for hatred.

 

My dear Lord, I am an ADULTERER; for You taught us that if any one looks at a woman with lust has already committed adultery in heart. Dear Jesus, even after You washed my sins and made me Your precious child, so many times I am guilty of this sin. Please wash me Lord right now. Help me to realize that with my eyes very soon I am going to see my King with His glory and beauty. Please wash my heart, wash my eyes and wash me thoroughly that I will no more be guilty of this terrible sin and with pure eyes I may behold my King of glory.

 

Lord, I am guilty of WITCHCRAFT; for Your Word says, "Rebellion is as the sin of witchcraft."   My Lord, many times I have done witchcraft--I have rebelled against Your Word, against Your servants, against my Elders in my heart, even against mine own conscience.  Please have mercy upon me a poor sinner and backslider in heart. Please give me a new heart that I may not rebel but impilicitly and immediately obey Your Word.

 

My meek and gentle Saviour, I tremble to confess that I am guilty of the number one sin of the devil - PRIDE. Lord, You are so humble that You can forgive even the worst sinner, without any difficulty.  Dear Lord, help me to realize that it is my pride that makes it hard to forgive others. Lord, it is not the seriousness of others sins that I am unable to forgive some people, but it is because of the seriousness of my pride.

 

My blessed Lord, help me to realise that when I am hurt, it is my pride that is hurt, when I am deeply hurt, it is a sure sign that I have deep pride in my heart.  The very fact that I get irritated inside and angry, Lord, it is nothing but my exceeding pride, the very pride of the devil in the bottomless pit. Please have mercy on me. Lord, I am unworthy even to lift up my eyes unto Thee.  Please Lord, have mercy on me, lest I be consumed in Your wrath.

 

My precious Jesus, please help me to be open and transparent before You - Yes Lord,  I confess, I am a HYPOCRITE,  a LIAR, a MURDERER, an ADULTERER and am guilty of terrible WITCHCRAFT and PRIDE.

 

Dear Master, help me to know that I am not consumed purely because of Your great mercies and compassion on me. Dear Saviour, if You will take into account all my sins, I know, the earth can cleave where I am seated right now and I can go deep down to the pit of hell and while going down I could only say, God is just and righteous in throwing me to the pit. Thank You Lord, for Your great mercies on this poor, wretched, unworthy soul and for preserving me in Your holy presence.

 

My heavenly Father, it is Your goodness that leads me to repentance. Please help me to see my own wretchedness and sinfulness so that with a broken and contrite heart I can plead for Your mercy and compassion. Please help me that every breath of mine be a deep cry from my heart for Your matchless purity, divine humility, heavenly love and blessed will to be perfected in my life so that every breath of my life would be a perfume of praise for my precious Saviour.

 

Thank You dear Lord, for answering my prayers.

 

In Jesus precious Name. Amen