(Sunday; February 13, 2005)
I've been reflecting on the past five years of no acting roles. On the initial day when I decided I no longer wanted to act, it was difficult to decided what I had intened to do for a career, given I had bypassed University for this so-called acting career that kinda-sorta took off, but not really, yet kept me working for 13 years. I had thought of going to University at that point, but thought a writing course couldn't be taught seriously in a classroom unless taught by Ray Bradbury or Stephen King [or at least some well known author who has sold several million books] I was literally angry with rage, surfing under a big wave of responsibility, until I got a lesson in changing from mister "I'm-my-own-grandpa." I realized that you can't give up hope just because it's hopeless. You gotta hope even more! I think that's good advice for tracking down my inspiration and finding my muse again. I can't expect to hit a single home run if I don't take batting practice, you know? So, anyways, I needed a change in my life and the only other thing I had any real talent for was this surfing thing [check that, surfing SPORT!] So that's the direction I headed for and have been doing extremely well in that area.
