Disclaimers: I do not own Dragonball neither the song („Mouth“ by Bush)

Warnings: Death.. and it’s… a little bit crazy ^-^

Author: Sley

Archive: my crazy brain

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you gave me this
made me give

Your smile makes a chill run down my spine. I don’t understand you…I just confessed my love to you... and what are you doing? You just smile at me an say, “No!”

For all those years I tried to erase my love for you… but I never succeeded. Every day I saw you, heard you… felt you... and now? You turn your back on me and walk away. You leave me here, alone. Why did you have to say those words? Why do you have to hurt me? After all we’ve done together… after we... slept together... you leave me here and go back to her- back to this girl, that you left before. Are you just playing with me? Was this all just fun for you? Please don’t do this to me... you don’t know what you’re doing… and I... don’t know anymore either…

your silver grin
still sticking it in
you have soul machine
soul machine

Every day I got up with problems. You haven’t been free- and I didn’t have even the slightest chance… but the hope has been there… and I wasn’t been able to forget it. And then… one day.. you two split up.. you came to me and cried. You cursed her.. and I comforted you. Maybe it was a mistake- but just at this moment I dared to kiss you.. you were stiff and  looked at me as if I’d gone crazy. Then you stood up and ran away.. I cried more that evening than I had in a long time. I thought that I had lost you forever…

But.. a few hours later.. deep in the night… you came back to me. You sat down beside me and you hugged me. “I’m sorry… I was silly. Gomen!” My heart nearly jumped out of my chest, and  I was  completely on cloud nine when you kissed me… and we also slept together.. I don’t know how to describe it.. it was  wonderful.. one dream came true..

But it should not last long… and your Grin reminds me of that…

the longest kiss
peeling furniture days
drift madly to you
pollute my heart drain
you have broken in me broken me
all your mental armour drags me down
nothing hurts like your mouth mouth mouth

Some days later you came back to me again. . and you told me radiant with joy  that you two were together again- your words broke my heart.. you did not mention me with one single word- you only spoke of you both. Did she not hurt you? She’s going to do it again! Have I done something wrong? Why are you so near to me.. and now so far? You shatter my dreams like fragile glass… no word of pity comes out of your mouth..  just like I’ve only been a cheap alternative… can’t you just be quiet?

The words out of your mouth only hurt me.. or is it that, what you want to achieve? Do you hurt me on purpose? I don’t know in that way…maybe my brain plays me a trick.. but I’m too wounded to be able to think clearly… you’ve taken everything from me.. everything.. that I’ve held on  to… just be quiet!!!

 you loaded smile
pretty just dessert
I wish it all for you so much it never hurts
you have soul machine
stolen me

I look up- you turned your back on me.. but I am still able to see your grin. You are not suffering.. you only hurt me- and the only thing  you’re able to do is smile. Would it be too much for you to apologize? Sure- I’ve also made some mistakes.. maybe I shouldn’t have hoped that much- but you’ve been my friend.. my love… I have not been able to do anything different. And you do know me- you know what is able to destroy me.. but nevertheless you do it- as if you want to kill me…

Again you say it, “No!”… can’t you just be quiet? I’m walking towards you.. but you do not even look at me. Angrily I ball my fists.. do you like it when you see me this way? The despair increases inside of me.. becomes anger and hate... I do want to see you suffer.. like me.. and the most important thing- shut up!

all you mental armour drags me down
we can't breathe when you come around
all your mental armour drags me down
nothing hurts like your mouth mouth mouth

I roughly grab the back of your neck and turn you around. “Is that funny???” I shout into your face. But you keep on smiling. Your eyes grow wide with shock as I put my hands onto your mouth and nose. I push you on the ground and take your air to breathe. In vain you try to free yourself- but I’ve always been the stronger one. Your eyes are filled with tears as you look at me pleading. I should stop? Why? You didn’t stop!!

your mouth  mouth 

Slowly the life goes away from your body and you’re not struggling anymore. I press you to me as you’re taking your last breath. “I’m sorry… trunks..” Too late.. now I am not able to take it back.. but now you are silent.. at least..

we'd been missing long before
never found our way home
we'd been missing long before
we will find our way
you gave me this
made me this

I slowly walk back home. I burned your body.. nobody is going to find it.. ever..- you are forgotten… gone forever. One day everybody has to leave this planet- at least your death had a sense. Will Father hate me for that? Or will he be proud because my Saiyan instincts are awake now? I don’t care- he will never hear about it… this is my little  secret.

Silently I go into my room. Surprised I raise an eyebrow as his girlfriend sits at my table. “I wanted to talk with you.. about Goten and me..!” she starts, but I decline and just tell her that there is nothing to talk about, because Goten ran away. She looks at me- stiff- I guess she doesn’t believe me..

She examines me and takes a step back. “You… killed.. him?”

My lips stretch in a smirk and I get nearer to her. She is clever.. too clever.. and too noisy.. she is not allowed to say it! “MURDERER!” she screams and tries to escape. I snap her arm and push her against the wall. She also doesn’t want to be quiet… those who doesn’t want to hear.. have to feel. She has to do what I’m saying.

She starts to screech, panicked… much too loud… I rip her left arm and push her head against the wall.. until It bursts. Then I let her go- her body falls onto the floor.. and this muted  sound is the last one she is ever going to make..

you have soul machine broken three
all your mental armour drags me down
we can't breathe when you come around
all your mental armour drags me down
nothing hurts like your mouth mouth
your mouth mouth mouth

With an aimed Ki-Ball I destroy her body… the blood on the wall is going to be cleaned by the cleaning lady… I only have to say that I’ve cut myself with a knife.. they are all that gullible... there really is a benefit to being the richest and most important man of the world..

I take the arm-stump and lick some of the blood, that runs down it… I smirked despite myself… it tastes good…

I think I slowly understand what my dad is speaking about.. the bloodthirst of the Saiyans… I pulverize also the arm and  wipe the rest of the blood of my lips.. then I open the window and start to fly- I don’t have work on my mind.. now I am going to do what I want…

all your mental armour
and your mouth
mouth

At least it is silent now… and I am going to keep this silence… she is mine- the one of the Prince of Saiyans. .but I think.. that I am going to search one.. with whom I can share this silence..

Silence…

And there is no mouth that screams something.. nobody who says “no!” …

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