Author : Fumi Ayakoganei.

E-Mail : [email protected]

Disclaimer : Angel Sanctuary is owned by Yuki Kaori. Does that answer it all?

Note : This is my ever first Angel Sanctuary fanfiction and dedicated to my seniors, Nikki-san, Izuya-san and Aria-san. I actually have very little information on the anime, so I'm really sorry if the character doesn't appear as it should be. I just admire Kira-senpai's personality, therefore trying to portray his feelings from within.

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I lied...

About my existence...The real me, trapped deep inside my own body...Wanting to be set free from this curse...If only God hadn't planned the accident...The deadly tragedy that sent mother to heaven...I loved her dearly and thought that dying beside her would bring me to heaven too...What is this pain I'm feeling...? The pain that I lived with for 11 years...

The pain...

God blessed me with pain...Suffering for 11 years...I lied to hide my suffer...No one could understand...All of you hate me...Good...Hate me even more...So, that you'll be able to accept my death like kicking rubbish aside...But, when will death be on my side...? Who knows...? God intended to make me suffer by granting me an immortal life...

Immortality...

Those weapons...From gunshots to scratches...They can't kill me...I survive the same pain over and over again...Because I am not my own self anymore...Hah, why I couldn't even bother with such pain...That's a big fat lie...I lied to my own self...

I lied...

It hurts...The severe cuts, the deep slashes actually hurts...Even thought those horrid wounds disappear permanently from my flesh...They managed to hurt my heart...I suffer alone...The pain of immortality...Many portray me as a demon...A devil...I don't deserve to live...But, they can't see what's bleeding inside...Or can they...?

Nanatsusaya...

He's the reason I'm still walking on this planet...The planet that I once loved and treasured dearly...I didn't want it to be destroyed...Then, he made a deal with me...An offer I couldn't resist...In exchange, there will be no 'me'...The Kira Sakuya before no longer exists...All because of God's written fate...God hated me...Why won't you feel the same, father...?

Father...

I love you...I didn't want you to suffer anymore...One death was enough for you to break into tears...The death of mother...She was the light in your life...The one who brought you happiness...But, now she's gone forever...God loved her more than we...May her soul rest in peace, father...Sometimes, it's hard to let things go, but it's something we call hope...

Hope...

I try my best to make you hate me, father...It'll make your life happier and my death a silent past...I am a burden, am I...? If only you'd hate me...Why do you love me so much...? Can't you see...? I am nothing...A soulless and heartless person...Waiting for death...In a pool of lies...

I lied...

The harsh words I said to you...The cold things I did to you...Those are all lies I created...Created to make you go further and further away from me...You know I'm lying and you dare to seek the truth...That's the proof which shows that you still love me...But, why...?

Why...?

After all I did to you...After all the lies I created...Why do you still love me...? Am I that important to you...? Now, I realized how important I am in your life...But, after what I've done...Could you possibly forgive me...?

I lied...

But, will there be a chance...? A chance for me to take back all the lies...The lies that I've created...The lies that have been hurting your soul...Father, if only you were here to listen...I just wanna say that I'm sorry...

I'm sorry, father...

I lied...

~Owari~

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Personal Notice : Ano...Was that good or was that bad...? Definitely a very useless attempt...Probably gonna be the first and last Angel Sanctuary fanfiction that I'm writing due to my lack of knowledge...Gomen ne, minna-san...I know, it's bad and you guys are probably gonna flame me...No sequel, no continuation, no nothing. The story ends right there. Although I do appreciate reviews and I accept all comments, good or bad. Thank you for even deciding to read this! *bows politely*

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The original characters in this story example Mudou Setsuna, Mudou Sara, Sakuya Kira, Kurai, Arakune, Katan, etc etc... are entirely copyrights of their honorable creators. For the record, I do NOT own Angel Sanctuary. All rights reserved. Thank you.

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