Anniversary Bash

Ever since you've been gone,
the sun doesn't shine anymore.
The rain never stops
and I'm drowning in my sorrows.

The waters so deep
that I'll never make it to the bottom.
Maybe I'll just wait here
See how long it takes till I sink.

As I contemplate my existence
I see a small boat float by.
I wonder where it came from
as I climb aboard the craft.

For days all I see is water
an endless sea of solitude.
When I'm about to give up
I see something in the distance.

As I get closer I can see
that I'm coming upon land.
When I dock, people approach me
It's my family and friends.

They had never given up hope
they knew I could make it back to shore.
While I was running from the truth
they were waiting for me to come home.

I met you when I was young,
you were the coolest person I knew.
You were six years older than me
and had gone through so much more.
You were there for me as I grew up,
you taught me so much about life,
but as I got older it wasn't the same.

You were different to me now
and I was seeing you in a different light.
This light cast shadows of doubt in my mind.
Were you really the same person
I had always admired?

I didn't want things to change
so I pretended things were as they had always been.
I shouldn't have been so delusional,
it would have saved me the heartache.

Things started getting worse,
the lies and broken promises more frequent.
I cried endless tears and fought for control,
hoping things would change if I just waited awhile.
But they didn't and I knew I had to let you go.

So I'm leaving you behind,
I have to move on now.

I'm lost in the world,
just one more person
in a sea of endless bodies.
My feet don't stick to the ground,
so I'm pushed and shoved around
as everyone else goes about their business.
I want something constant in my life,
but how can that be when I don't even know where I stand?

When I met you, I was speechless,
you were so breathtakingly beautiful
that I didn't know what to say.
But you knew you were
and that made all the difference.
Why put into words something
that you used to your advantage?

We started talking
and the more we talked
the closer you got to me.
You offered to walk me home
and as we reached my door,
you asked me, "Can I kiss you?"

And I replied, "I'm not that careless with my kisses."

Suffice to say, now you were the one who was speechless.

There's music inside of you
and it's screaming to be let out.
But you can't make it bleed
and it frustrates you so much.
I, on the other hand have music
flowing freely from me.

Sometimes, I think that makes you mad(sad),
and that's when you go and lock yourself away.
Sometimes that makes me feel lonely,
all I want is for us to be singing together.
But I can't make you bleed
and I can't stop bleeding.

You're intoxicating
and you seep into my skin.
You're everywhere around me,
all I can do is breathe you in.
You're blinding me,
taking away my sight.
You're killing me,
but I won't give up without a fight.