Why?

"Am I supposed to laugh at something I don't think is funny? How am I supposed to fake laughing off something someone said that offended me without feeling hurt and without having them say, "hey, lighten up, it's a joke." Am I supposed to say something back? Why can't I yell and get pissed off and let them know it? Why do I have to listen to what others say when I already know what they're going to tell me, it's common sense. Why do I have to love a person who doesn't love me back? Why can't they think it's a compliment but understand that once they know, feel like a friend more than anything? Why can't they still stay friend with me like before? Why can't they feel something back? Why am I insecure? I know who I am, I know what I want and how I want it done, I know my imperfections and I know which ones I need to change. I know that college is good and gets you payed more money but that's not what I want. I know dancing can be an on and off job, but I know how to handle getting a part time job. Why can't I be held? Is it so much to ask to be kissed? Why do I not listen? Why am I so stubborn and end up burning in the end? Why can't I just go for it and forget the insecure emotion running through me. How come others don't accept me for who I am? How come they don't give back to me as I have given back to them in friendship? I call: to see what's up, to see if they want to go out and do something, to talk to them is they're having problems. Is it so bad to care? Is it cheesy to care so much? Why can't I cry when I want to? The tears won't even come when I need them to rock out from my body, so I can get over these emotions. Do I have them bottled so deep inside that I can't even restore them to get rid of them? Why can't I ask for things and not feel selfish? How come I can't want without feeling selfish?

Why am I alone?

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