[october fourth 2001]: well well well it look's like another month has gone by and it's getting colder, which is for the best. the evening previous to this current one i checked out the "metallenium", which ended up being so fucking terrible it was amazing. i stayed for darkest hour and then left when god forbid came on... worst band ever. they had black guys so i thought they might make fun of white's or something but such was absent. um i came back to east hampton later on that night and the bus i had to take due to the lack of trains lost a chunk of metal and the tire flew out and it was a little bit of a scene around 197th street in queens. so i had to chill out there for an hour and i purchased a vanilla milk shake and read some herman hesse. later on that evening i picked a few people up and we all chilled over at the side of a bay on three mile harbor. relaxing evening it was, full moon too. um it's about 7:39 p.m. and i'm thinking about, actualy i'm pretty set on going out to salivars around 1:00 in the morning or so. gas is so expensive it's so fucked up. in mass it is barely 1.40 in some places for premium or super, whatever have you. anyway, converge is playing this weekend in nyc, which i'll probaly attend, there is a bunch of good stuff happening this month that will ensure that i am broke as hell. over the past few nights at union square in the back, there has been parades of bikers and skaters filming videos, one biker did a back flip on the construction dirt hill's they managed to edit to meet their ramping standards and there was circles of people there until 3:30 - 4 a.m. each night, so check it out. i'm there usualy sun. - wens. everynight, and other nights as well. i have a few twin towers, "world trade center" postcards from the lat 70's and early 80's so if you want one email me i can get them for ya for a little price befor they are all gone. i need money bad so.... bye.
[october seventh 2001]: well it is 4:29 in the a.m and im pretty relaxed, watching free cable television is pretty nice. had salivars hours previous. now awaiting a good movie on tv. some stuff coming up in nyc look in the hear section and e-mail me with any show information. life is pretty much normal i guess, nothing big happened recently just relaxing out... ah. well no school monday so only two days this week which will be nice eh, i can't write i can't see to sleepy.
[october tenth 2001]: well another day has gone by and my college is really aggrivating me and i'm so tempted to drop out, but i'll stick with it and am going to transfer out this upcoming semester. it's 3:05 in the morning and i'm not tired whatsoever. things haven't been going my way as usualy, i have been improving skating and been playing alot of guitar. also drawing and writing non-stop, i'm so amazingly tired i can't feel my face. listening to soilwork - final fatal for... something force i think whoa it's mad good. sick guitars. the assistant is playing this coming friday at the hardrock cafe and i'm possibly going. i'll be going to new jersey to say farewell to my grandparents whom are moving to florida, which is sad but it's better for them physically and mentally i assume. OE 800 sure hit's hard. went to salivars this evening and it was pretty good, consumed alot of food, but it sure didn't meet my standards, which are probaly unsatisfactory anyway. oh god i'm pretty alert... sort of, walking by the world trade center everyday to school sure isn't that great either, the unbearable smell is first sensed when arriving at the brooklyn bridge stop on centre street. plasticy probaly human flesh, it's fucking terrible and it's populated by many more people than usual of course, but the majority is sobbing and clinging onto the others for some sort of hope. then there are the sidewalk postcard and flag salesmen and women whom really don't have any respect in my mind, just trying to make money out of the tragedy any way that's possible, and it's definetly sick. the weather has been pretty great on another note eh? the cool frigid air is definetly what i need to relax. sleeping in the cold is much better than the hot. alot more comfortable and pleasing. and watching the nature die along with the nation is kinda ironic and odd, but i definetly sense it. can't really write much more even though i am driven to, now the time reaches 3:12 and i'm still feeling the same way as i did when i arrived at my casa. oh well i'll probaly write a little something up tommorow night so..... [outro music].
[october eighteenth 2001]: well well well it's thursday and it's about three twenty and i haven't entered anything in here for more than a week. my computer got busted and i just haven't had the opportunity to write. well now that i can, i'm in white plains relaxing until friday then i'm taking the trains down to east hampton. i had forgotten my skateboard on the new jersey railroad whilst helping my grandparents move stuff out of their house because of their decision to move to florida. it was good times, besides loosing my skateboard. i don't know how i'm going to get another setup its so expensive. well there's alot of shows coming up i will update the list. slayer is going on a world tour or national tour not sure, but they hit nyc soon. i applied to a few schools for spring 2002 so we will see what will happen with that, i just have to make slides to complete the process. everybody is making money off this terrorist attack, is this right? every block flags and postcards are for sale, there are even advertisments on the television box. oh well i am going to read.