10.16.2003
It's after 1 am and I haven't had a normal night of sleep in ages. I am awake and so tired and feel so alone right now. I am so drained. I am blah. I look for things to do and pretty much, nothing interests me anymore. I am hoping that eventually I will just drop into a decent sleep, but after all this time I am becoming doubtful.

My drivers license is missing; it disappeared last week after the 'incident'. I will probably get it replaced tomorrow, since I have to actually drive somewhere on Monday.

The desire to do anything is gone from me. My appetite is almost non existant and my mind won't shut off when I try to rest.

I am feeling as if I have become blah and boring; as if the moods and feelings have overcome me and become me. It's as if I am no longer interesting and have been tossed aside for something that has come along and is more enticing.

I'm so tired and all of this really doesn't make much sense to me in my head.


babbled by me @ 1:20 AM

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