8.8.2003
Awake before 5 am again as usual. The sad thing is that today is a vacation day for me.

I broke down and cried yesterday while taking a shower. I miss my mom and need her right now. Grandad is dying and he knows it. We all know it and there is nothing we can do to stop this from happening. I cried most of last night. I look like total shit this morning, hopefully my eyes will be able to open at some point today.

I'll be heading over to my grandparent's house around noonish to help them with some things. It's going to be hard not to cry in front of my grandfather. I talked to him yesterday and asked how he was feeling. He said he was feeling a bit better, but grandmother told me otherwise. He never bothered to get dressed and stayed in his pj's and slept all day. This is something that I've never seen happen in my entire life. He is always up around 5 or 6 and dressed for the day, usually drinking coffee and waiting to wake up grandma.

*sighs*



babbled by me @ 4:55 AM

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