| Tuesday May 7th 2002 Made a mistake the other night; an old one I guess I'm still fighting to overcome. I was leaving a friend's place and his neighbour showed up, a very friendly young lady about my own age who immediately engaged my friend in conversation and tried saying hello to me - I think - I wasn't really listening to their conversation. But if she did slip in a hello, I sure didn't answer or even acknowledge it, just kept walking, and for a few moments at least I didn't feel a bit badly about it. That was the self I used to be in the old days, the highschool days, when I gave far more people the cold shoulder than I ever should have for absolutely no reason at all, and actually prided myself on it. By university I'd pretty much shaken it off, but maybe now that I'm single again some of the old habits are sneaking back. If I don't make a conscious effort, I may do damage to my new resolve to be as open and as friendly as possible. Don't give into the dark side!! :) The happy truth is that's the first and only time I've caught myself doing it in a long, long while, so I shouldn't be too hard on myself. And there's lots of people I have responded to and been very thankful to myself for it. My ex used to say 'too bad we didn't meet when we were still in highschool', and I'd just shake my head, cause we probably never would have dated much less married if we had. So I guess she was right, we should have - ha! I have to apologize for the gloomy weather here in Ottawa this morning, I was thinking about rollerblading again and those two events seem to go hand in hand. I promise I'll think very hard about not rollerblading this afternoon, but while I've still a few moments - I think I'll finally get a pair this week and hook up with JM to see if I can't get my two feet coordinated on wheels better than they are on the dance floor. I expect I ought to pick up knee pads at the very least, and probably elbow pads as well, because we all know I'm going to try picking up a few bruises too. Oh, the sacrifices I make for a little exercise (laying back of hand across forehead)! My story for writing class is done, so I'll see what I can do about posting it in my archives. It's longer than I expected, so if you don't want to bother reading it who's going to blame you? |