| Wednesday March 6th 2002 One of the things I missed most about being single and can now appreciate experiencing once again - far more than I could before - is the agony of the coy glance. There is an attractive young woman who rides the same bus route home with me. I don't see her every day, and there are many days when I'm seated well ahead of her and don't get more than that first glimpse. She looks like a bit of a loner. She looks like me. She has dark hair and glasses, and is usually reading something - John Irving's 'Prayer for Owen Meany', or 'Cider House Rules'. When she's not, she's dreaming - gazing out the window at nothing in particular. She rarely speaks to anyone, rarely so much as glances at anyone. Once in a while our eyes meet by chance, and quickly part - just two passengers who happened to look each other's way at the same time. I missed this sort of thing. I missed wondering what a mysterious person I'm attracting to is thinking, whether she's ever thinking about me, or whether she's looking at me when I'm not looking at her. I used to find it painful. I thought it was unfair torture. Now I take it as the pleasure it is - I actually enjoy it. I used to not want to be caught looking. Now I like that too. I want her to know she's attractive, and that I wonder about her, and what she's like. The reality in this case is that she's probably too young for me, although I'm not a very good judge of age. It's also likely the case we'll never have occasion to say anything to each other. I hope she's there tomorrow :) On another subject: I discovered this page is pretty darn ugly in Netscape, or so it seemed to me. At noon I had time at work to redo my background and rearrange a few other things more to my liking, so I think I've fixed most of the problems. The ads are puzzling me; they only seem to appear in Netscape, not IE, which makes me wonder who's paying who around here. Sorry about the scripting error that pops up occasionally - chances are I can't do much about it but I'll try tracking it down. |