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DOLLS
by Vickie Tern
PART ONE
Bob still didn't know how he felt about it, or even how he was
supposed to feel. At first he'd said "No!" abruptly, without
thinking, and she'd called it a typically mindless male response,
which of course is what it was. She said she'd hoped for better
than that from him, especially given the way he claimed he felt
about her. This was something she wanted him to do, she really
did, never mind why. It was for her! And he'd refused.
She'd told him he had better rethink his answer, or she'd
start rethinking lots of things about their relationship. So
that's what Bob was doing, more and more desperately, over and
over. The old sufficient reasons he came up with at first got more
vague and meaningless with each repetition. She was marvelous, an
incredible girl, and he was hopelessly in love with her. She'd
become his whole life, his reason for breathing, practically. He
didn't dare risk losing her. But she was odd in some ways too. His
refusing her "one teeny little request, please, for me, just
because I want you to is why," now looked as if it was going to
destroy everything they'd been to each other.
It had all started out casually enough, a straightforward
slow-percolating affair with a girl who seemed at first to be far
beyond the reach of his desires. He'd met her in a singles bar.
He'd been leaning over the bar alone as usual, nursing his
Chardonnay and meanwhile looking sideways at different couples
chatting each other up. They all looked like people he'd like to
get to know, he thought. Maybe less lonely and uncertain than he
was these days, but who wasn't?
He was still new in town, and still knew hardly anyone. Still
with no job, though thinking of looking. He'd come a month earlier
from another town where he also knew no one, to collect an
inheritance from his grandmother, and he'd planned to leave that
evening. But when the lawyer handed him the check it looked a lot
more sizeable than he'd anticipated, like real money in fact. So
he'd decided then and there to stay and try to make a fresh start,
take his time looking around, and if he liked what he saw settle
in. Now, being a little shy, he still didn't know anyone. But
this singles bar was the one place he could go to get out of that
drab furnished apartment he rented by the month, and who could
tell?
This particular evening he was glancing down the bar to his
right at a dark-haired girl in a green silk breast-hugging blouse,
wondering if those small bulges poking forward through the fabric
were her nipples or some dressmaker's contrivance. She was looking
sideways through heavy black eye makeup at a chunky man leaning
over her, and laughing as if amused by something he had just said,
though she sounded a little forced. Girls on dates always did
that, tried to look pleasing and seem pleased. The man was hefty,
a football player once maybe, not yet gone soft. No matter. Bob
was thin. Always had been. Too thin to interest a girl like that?
"I notice you always order the same wine. Don't you ever
feel feel like trying something new?"
Startled, he looked left, toward a voice too close not to be
talking to him. At first he saw only a mass of loose blonde hair,
piled up but then falling like theatrical curtains to frame a
strong, beautiful face. Its almond-shaped eyes stared steadily at
him, amused, confident, friendly, seeming to share something. She
had bright, pouty lips. Bob didn't dare look down further, to
check out her body -- that would be too obvious, too rude. A
single sweep of his eyes and he might lose her.
"I try different things till I find what I like, then I stick
with it," he replied.
Dumb! Still, it was the best he could think of on such short
notice, not too bad. Quick. Something else!
"Can I order something for you? What would you like?"
She looked surprised, as if this never happened in singles
bars, even somewhat grateful. Yet her eyes remained amused, and
never left his. The bartender noticed that finally something was
happening in Bob's vicinity, and came over.
"Bailey's Irish on the rocks," she said.
"Bailey's Irish on the rocks," Bob repeated to the bartender,
who was already turning away. Then feeling foolish, he added,
"Make that two."
"I thought you stick with what you like," she said.
"I'd like to try what you like," he said, now feeling rather
racy.
"What I like can get you into trouble," she said, "Unless
you're really up to it, really ready. Creamy, thick, sweet. You
lick it and suck on it, its more like kissing than drinking, and
then you lick it off your own lips. You think you'd like that?"
"I'll find out, I guess," he said guardedly. "I'm willing to
try." This conversation's eroticism was racing past him. He'd
better change the subject.
"I'm Diana," she said abruptly, holding out her hand. It was
as if he'd somehow just passed some kind of test.
"Bob," he replied, resisting a gallant impulse to bring her
hand to his lips. He let it go. "Mistress of the hunt," he added,
to show her he'd read some Greek mythology.
"Not mistress," she replied. "Though I suppose I've been.
Goddess. Maybe you'll find out. Or maybe all you'll find is what
else I can be."
"I hope so," he said, hoping that was the right answer. She'd
lost him.
And that was how it started. They'd set up a date, he had no
car so she told him she'd come by his place to pick him up, and
still looking straight into his eyes, she picked up her purse.
Then suddenly she was no longer there.
For a while Bob had every reason to believe he was dating
Diana the Chaste, not Diana the Huntress. He couldn't understand
why such a beautiful girl -- with really a ravishing figure once he
got to look at it, round yet trim and willowy -- why she sounded so
pleased every time he asked her for a date, and never put him off,
and always seemed reluctant to leave when it ended, yet never
accepted his invitations to come in and relax in his place before
driving on home. She had the brisk ease of a woman raised wealthy,
and her clothes showed it. She could afford to buy whatever she
liked, and she seemed to like him. The more they saw of each
other, the further their talk advanced into small intimate
confessions, the luckier he felt that such a marvelous girl was at
all interested in him. It was beyond hope or belief.
Yet physically she remained reserved. He never pressed her
for more than their brief good night kisses because the initiatives
were all hers. She'd pick him up and drive them wherever they were
going, then drop him off before disappearing into the night. When
he'd asked for her phone number she'd waved her hand and given it
to him, but she'd said something about calling her being difficult,
she shared her phone, and she was so often out. She'd take his
number and call him regularly. As she did.
On their fifth date she surprised him with an unexpected and
elegant blow job, quite casually, while they were sitting and
talking in her car in front of his apartment building. While she
was saying something in her comfortable, matter-of-fact manner,
she'd reached into his lap, unzipped him, taken it out, bent over,
and no mistaking it, he'd immediately felt himself enclosed in her
moist warmth. When he came he spurted semen in helpless surrender
deep into her mouth, and it seemed that she swallowed all of it.
But then when she sat up again and leaned over his face to kiss
him, there it all was, some of it dribbling from her mouth into
his, then all of a sudden her tongue pushing great glops into his
mouth while she sealed his lips tightly against hers, so he had no
choice but to accept it and swallow it down. It tasted a little
creamy, a little salty, very odd, not too bad. He was licking his
lips as she leaned back to watch his reaction, and she smiled at
him, and he smiled back. "See," she said. "It's like I said, you
lick it off your own lips." He'd thought she'd meant her own
juices that night they'd met at the bar, bantering in that racy way
he could barely follow. Maybe she did. But he decided not to say
anything.
It was just as well he didn't object to licking and sucking
his own cum out of her mouth and swallowing it, because that turned
out to be a regular thing with her, a kink she enjoyed, and not at
all accidental. She liked doing it. The next few times she held
all of his cum in her mouth and then spooned it slowly back to him
with her tongue, in ardent kisses all the more sensuous and sultry,
it seemed, for being laced with his own jism. She pressed her lips
tightly against his mouth, and repeatedly her tongue pushed a teeny
bit more to where his tongue could lick it off, their two tongues
so salaciously entwined that he had no choice but to receive it
gratefully and swallow it down.
It bothered him at first, but that was what she wanted him
to do, obviously, and he saw no harm in it. His semen became part
of their shared desire, and after a few more dates he was avid each
time to sip it from her lips and swallow it down. Once she didn't
give him her prolonged cum kiss after she blew him, instead
swallowing it while looking at him with a mischievous smile, then
giving him a peck on the cheek and settling back for him to leave
the car. His face fell. She noticed, and smiled half to herself.
She said next time she'd make it up to him.
That next time, a week or so later, she surprised him with a
moment that was utterly magical. Under the stars on a deserted
turnoff high above the valley, they parked and looked at the town's
lights far below. He walked a little distance away to take a leak
behind a tree, and when he returned he found her sitting sideways
on the front seat, the car door open and both her legs dangling
toward him, thighs spread wide, Diana with her pussy open to the
chaste moon. She sat imperiously over her open crotch watching him
return, and as he came up to her she made a single sweeping gesture
downward with her whole arm, pointing to the juncture of her
thighs, or maybe to the ground beneath. He fell to his knees
between her legs as if clubbed, and buried his face in her slit,
and lapped and sucked and thrust his tongue into her like a man
demented. It was true. She was creamy, thick, and sweet. She
wrapped her legs around his head and shoulders, and pulled him
close into her with her thighs, and stroked his hair. She seemed
to cum several times, pressing her pussy ever more tightly into his
face while tensing her legs and making mewing sounds. Perhaps not.
No matter, he loved it.
From then on he was hers. He loved her, helplessly,
hopelessly, utterly, more completely than he had ever fallen for
any girl anywhere. He doted on her, and lived only for their time
together. She began to allow him to go down on her before each
date as well as after, each time in her car, Bob's bowed back
tucked down under the dashboard, his face thrust forward eagerly
into her pussy, tongue fucking her until she seemed to cum with
those cute little squeals and gasps he loved to hear. He was
ecstatic that he was able to please her. Then, she always went
down on him too before the night was out, always feeding him his
own cum out of her own delicate lips, in small sips, like a rare
wine. He couldn't get enough of her.
Once she agreed to spend the night with him in his bed, if
he'd promise to keep his penis to himself or else available to her
mouth and no where else. He nodded joyously, unable to speak.
That one night she'd lain back completely naked, hands clasped
behind her head, watching him, saying nothing at all. He'd kissed
her from head to toe over and over, in little nibbles, pausing at
her nipples and returning to them again and again. She'd allowed
his mouth free access to her cunt, and he wore down his tongue on
her slit and clit while she heaved her hips into his face
repeatedly. Who knows how often she'd orgasmed? That same night
she'd gone down on him three times, each time more sweetly, each
time serving him his own fresh juice from her own sweet mouth. Yet
she denied him entry into her body except with his nose and his
tongue, And she never seemed to hear his pleadings for an
explanation, to know why or why not.
The next morning as she prepared to leave his flat, another
odd kink showed up. She was standing at his bureau making up her
face in his mirror, and he looked over her shoulder and pressed his
cheek to hers, to see their two faces reflected together. They
were about the same height, both thin, with the same high cheek
bones. His blonde hair was shorter than hers, but getting longer
-- she liked long hair she'd told him, and sshe'd asked him not to
cut it. What little beard he had was thin and blonde, and anyhow
still smooth-shaven, hardly visible even the morning after. His
cheek snuggled against hers, she placed her palm on his other
cheek, and they smiled at each other's images. They looked so much
alike, like brother and sister. It was a marvelous moment.
Then she resumed putting on her lipstick, looking seriously at
her own face in the mirror, her mouth partly open, her cheek still
pressed against his. When she was done, she opened her mouth wide
as a signal to him, her lips stretched taut. He opened his the
same way. Then before he knew what was happening, she'd lipsticked
his mouth just the way she'd just done hers, as if his lips were
alternatively hers, all the while she held her palm firm on his
other cheek so he couldn't move away. Then she pressed her lips
together in another signal for him to do the same, to spread the
lipstick evenly on his upper and lower lips. He did. It was all
so unexpected, he had no time even to think about it.
mascara, and each time he'd wiggle or protest, or grin to ask her
what in the world, she'd hush him with such ferocity he quickly
lapsed into silence. Then when she was done she led him back to
where he'd first seen himself with her, cheek to cheek in his
mirror, her palm on his other cheek. They looked again at their
faces reflected together over his bureau. No longer were they
brother and sister. Now they were sisters, a pair of very pretty
girls, though his hair hung in rather lank strands not quite to his
collar.
She grinned, and patted his cheek reassuringly with her
upraised palm, and said to him, "I'd hoped so. You'll do. Leave
it on all day today, see how you like it. As a favor to me." Then
she'd picked up her overnight bag, her cosmetic kit, and her purse,
and the door closed behind her while he was still staring
astonished at his own reflection, no longer him, wondering what all
that was about. One more odd thing about her, he thought. But in
a way that was why he loved her, these unpredicatble impulses of
hers.
Because she'd asked him to, he left his face made up all day.
At first each glimpse of himself in a mirror surprised him, but by
the afternoon he'd gotten used to it. He barely registered that
his lipstick had worn off though his eye makeup was still as dense
as ever. He put off running out for a few errands, and washed his
face only that evening, just before bed. When he showered the next
morning he no longer remembered.
***************
But now her "teeny little request, for me, please" was
destroying everything they'd been to each other. What was it he
was refusing her? As their previous date ended, he'd been lying
content with his head in her lap, his nose pressed against her
mound. She'd cradled his face between her breasts as she leaned
forward across him to suck on his cock. He'd come so sweetly into
her tender moist mouth, so deliciously, as always. As always she'd
loomed over his face as he raised himself up to her, and she'd
lovingly pressed gobs of his sperm through pursed lips down into
his open mouth. As always he'd received it gratefully and
swallowed it all, and each time he swallowed, she'd kissed him, so
very sweetly. Then she'd cuddled him, and in the most
matter-of-fact manner mentioned to him that she'd had a marvelous
idea for their next date. Together they'd enjoy a girls' night
out. She'd come to his place two hours earlier than usual to help
him get ready, and then the two of them would go on a date with
each other as girlfriends. She'd make him up to look as pretty as
she did. It would be such fun! Nothing much, dinner and a movie,
maybe dancing afterward. She knew a lesbian bar where no one would
notice or care that two pretty girls were in each other's arms,
rubbing themselves against each other.
He'd felt a sudden severe qualm in his belly and said "No!",
allowing himself no time even to think about it. She'd reacted as
if he'd slapped her.
The strength of his own denial surprised him. But he was
indeed shocked by her proposal, and to tell the truth, he was also
a little frightened. He was a man! He had his dignity! And he
wanted her to admire him, to respect him. She couldn't possibly
admire and respect some nancy faggot mincing along beside her on a
date! He told her that.
There then followed the conversation that still gnawed at his
mind. She wanted him the way she wanted him, she said, and it was
not for him to decide how she wanted him. She'd hoped for a more
loving response from him, less brutal, more considerate of her
desires. She asked him to reconsider his decision, while she
meanwhile reconsidered their whole relationship. That much sounded
stern. Then suddenly she'd begun to tease, and wheedle, and tickle
him, saying "Please!" and "For me!" over and over until he'd agreed
to reconsider the matter.
Then for the next few days in repeated phone calls she'd
coaxed him along, just this once, just for fun, just to please her.
Plainly it meant a lot to her, and the more he thought about it the
less it meant to him. But still he'd held back his consent, as a
matter of pride, he realized. His manly image of himself in her
eyes was at stake. And he didn't want to seem too pliable, too
easy.
Then for two days, no phone calls came, and his resolution
turned to jelly. He thought he'd lost her.
One morning he woke up hoping she'd call yet again, while
he was still in bed, so he could tell her "Yes! Of course!
Anything!" He couldn't forget that earlier glorious morning when
he had awakened to find her dear head with its gray-shadowed
eyelids on the pillow beside him, her blonde hair streaming back
from her pillow and tumbled free, just as it had fallen the
previous night when he'd set her down gently and then leaned over
her, and kissed her. That morning her wide eyes had opened to look
at him innocently for a moment, then to study him as her mouth
curled as usual into a sweet smile on seeing him bent over her,
just looking. This had happened only once, that one time she'd
been willing to spend the night with him while his penis was out
elsewhere. That one time. The thought that he might never again
see her face and golden hair on a pillow next to his suddenly
devastated him.
Of course he'd go along with her. He'd wear whatever clothes
would please her. It was what she wanted. He'd tell her that when
she next phoned. The whole issue was too trivial to think about
any more.
By ten she still hadn't phoned, and he decided he had to call
her. As he dialed, he realized suddenly that had no idea where she
lived. From the exchange he was dialing, somewhere south of town.
But she'd always picked him up in her BMW, or they'd met somewhere,
and then she'd always dropped him off again at his place. The
penalties of not having a car of your own. He heard her answer the
phone, and he said simply, trying not to sound contrite, "It's
Bob."
"Well?" was the way she answered him. Her voice sounded hurt
and distanced, even a little impersonal he was horrified to notice.
She'd half-written him off?
"Diana, for you, yes, anything at all," he replied "If that's
what you want me to do. I'm sorry I've been such a wimp. I told
you once, I'll always want to try anything you want, whatever you
like."
Now that she had him, she played with him. "Anything, Bob?
Always? That's a lot more than I'm asking from you now. But now
I just might want a lot more. You'll do anything at all for me?
From now on?"
From now on! Bob realized with joy that he hadn't blown it.
She was still thinking they had a future together! He felt
enormously relieved. "Of course," he said grandly. Then he
realized she might not be feeling altogether playful about this.
Be serious! He thought a moment. "Yes," he said. "I will. I think
so."
"Remember that, dear. Keep thinking it. I'll hold you to it.
From now on. Remember that."
Bob had no idea what she was talking about, but he didn't
care.
"How do you want to do this?" Bob asked. "It isn't Halloween.
We haven't got that excuse when people see me."
"That's why we have to be perfect. You'll look real. Don't
worry, you'll pass just beautifully. You'll make a lovely girl.
I don't want to embarrass either of us, you should know that. I
want you to have a wonderful experience. You'll be my date. Don't
give it another thought. I'll bring everything and decide
everything. Just be home next Friday at five p.m., naked, and
we'll take it from there. I'll want to remake you from the skin on
out. Trust me. You'll love it. It'll be exciting. It'll be our
little thing together."
"Let me tell you one thing more, Bobbi honey. It won't end
Friday night. Now that I have you I won't want to let you go. Not
yet. Maybe not at all. Maybe we'll spend the whole weekend
together. Maybe all of next week. And I really mean together. As
long as you're the person I want you to be, I'll see to it that
you're very, very happy. This will be wonderful for you. You'll
see."
She then hung up. Bob just sat there, the phone still in his
hand, unable to move, tears slowly filling his eyes. He blinked.
He'd nearly lost her! The most wonderful girl in the world, and
he'd nearly lost her, just because she wanted to play this game
with him and he'd balked. Never again! He didn't understand some
of the things she'd just said, but whatever she wanted, from now on
that was what he wanted!
****************
Now it was Friday and nearly five. Bob was already naked,
pacing up and down, waiting. He had no idea what to expect. It
seemed to him a little silly, Diana wanting him to date her wearing
women's clothing. He'd heard of men who liked to do that, and he'd
always thought them a little strange. Well, a lot strange.
Probably gay. He loved seeing women's things on women, where they
fit, and curved, and declared soft, delicate things about their
bodies. He'd always felt there was something mysterious about
dresses, and blouses, and bras, and those other things women wore
and men didn't. Their clothes were like themselves, desireable,
remote, different, erotically charged, a large part of what being
a woman was like. They had their things, Bob thought, and we have
ours. That's what makes them feminine, and us masculine. He tried
not to remember that in anticipation of tonight, all week long
whenever he'd seen a girl his age and shape in the mall, or the
street, or in an office, he'd looked over their dresses, and
jackets, and blouses, and hosiery, and high heeled shoes, and
hairdos, and tried to imagine himself wearing them. Is that what
Diana wanted? His imagination had already submitted to her.
It's only clothing, he told himself. Wearing it won't make me
feminine. Will it? Or was it that when other people saw him and
thought he was a girl, then that would that make him feel feminine?
Maybe. Was this some supreme test Diana was putting him through to
see if he was worthy of her, or sincere in his feelings for her?
Bob wanted her to be happy.
But as the moment approached his heart started beating faster.
For some reason, what he was about to do seemed very dangerous, a
threat to something fundamental in himself, something vulnerable,
even fragile. When Diana's car showed up and he saw her walk
toward his building with a large valise in each hand, he felt
genuine fear.
She sensed this immediately as she came in, set her bags down,
looked his bare body up and down with a nod, and reached to kiss
him. She locked both her hands behind his neck and stared into his
eyes from just a few inches away, pressing her fully clothed belly
against his naked, engorging penis. "Don't worry, darling," she
said. "This is something I do every day. Half the world does this
every day. Just think of yourself as one of me. I think you'll
enjoy pretending to be me. Until you can decide for yourself what
kind of a girl you are and then be you, with your own style and
ways of feeling feminine, for the time being just pretend you're
me. OK?"
This was getting a little more extensive than he'd figured,
Bob thought. What's on her mind isn't just tonight. But I've got
to humor her. I did promise her. I want her to have what she
wants. "Whatever you want, I want," he told her. "I'm yours."
And for some reason, when he said that he felt reassured.
What she showed she'd brought in the suitcases was also
reassuring, a little. She wasn't planning on a high-styled date,
just drinks and dinner for two in a restaurant already crowded with
other couples absorbed with each other, two women together having
a TGIF evening, then maybe a movie, then a casual drink at a bar
where men wouldn't try to hit on them. She smiled when Bob looked
startled at that last. Diana was dressed as always with a
simplicity that seemed elegant, in a billowing silk blouse gathered
at the wrists and a full tweed skirt to mid-calf. She'd brought
him a similar blouse and a "dress for success" business suit, gray
with a few purple threads highlighting the fabric, the skirt
tailored and nearly knee length, the jacket short and nipped in a
little at the waist. Not terribly effeminate or threatening. But
form-fit, and decidedly a woman's suit.
"No pants for my first time out," he asked hopefully? He
realized he'd just agreed to go out with her this way other times
too.
"When you next wear pants on a date with me," she replied,
"they'll be cut so fashionable or so cute that men will try to
climb all over your sweet litte ass. You'll be eager to get back
into a sound, sensible skirt, like this one." She held it up.
"Your first Chanel classic. The basis for your future wardrobe.
Isn't it just lovely?"
Bob saw she was looking at it it with obvious pleasure, and
thought he should share that pleasure with her, show he was a good
sport. "It's just lovely," he said.
She glanced sideways at him, not at all fooled. "Yes, it is,"
she said. "You'll love it. You'll see. But let's go to the
bathroom and get you started."
An hour later, Bob felt very peculiar indeed.
First of all, his body was utterly hairless. He'd never felt
so naked. She'd taken him into the bathroom and stood him in the
tub, and directed him to shave himself everywhere. "You can leave
a little triangle on your crotch, around those sweet little toys of
yours," she said. "All girls have hair on their mounds, and yours
proves you're a natural blonde. That's an asset. And we're going
to give you a pretty hairdo, too. But all the rest of your hair
goes!"
When he was done she foamed his stubble with hair removing
lotion of some kind, and then washed it all down the drain, and
then soothed his skin with a perfumed body lotion, her slim fingers
wiping it smooth over his curves and into his crevices. Now he was
more naked, smooth, and exposed than he'd felt since he was born.
She looked him over appraisingly, not disapproving but somehow
speculative.
Then something more shocking, that made him feel even more
vulnerable. She suddenly produced two Fleet enemas and told him to
use them to clean out his "you-know-what," first one then the
other. He'd gotten to his knees on the bathroom rug and bent way
over, shoulders also on the rug, asshole high, and inserted the
first and squeezed in the fluid, while she watched him impassively.
"I could fuck you with that," she said suddenly. "But I have
better things in mind. Still, why don't you do yourself a little
when you use the second one?" He didn't respond. This was her
game.
He held the liquid from the first inside himself under orders
for nearly fifteen minutes, until he was convulsed with cramps.
Then when she permitted he poured it all out of himself into the
toilet, embarrassed that she was there the whole time, sitting on
the edge of the tub watching him casually, waiting for him to
finish. It smelled a little, but she seemed not to notice or mind.
Then she'd made him repeat the whole procedure with the other
enema kit, telling him this time to work the plastic nozzle in and
out of his anus to make sure the area inside was clear, "as if you
were fucking yourself with a pencil-sized dick." Only clear fluid
came out the second time, when finally she gave him permission to
sit and expel it.
Then came a surprise. She handed him a Massengill Douche kit
with a picture of a woman in a long white chiffon gown imaged on
the box, looking somehow pristine and soft. She told him to use
that too. "I want you to feel like that woman," she said.
"Clean, as beautifully clean in your body's openings as I am in
mine. This is very special, what we're doing tonight. I want your
body to feel different on the inside as well as the outside. A
woman should always feel fresh everywhere when she starts out on a
date. Remember that. Whatever scents and fluids then fill her
body should be those aroused by her lover."
She watched as Bob inserted the tip and administered the
douche to himself. "Gently," she said. "This is a rare privilege.
Don't let it seem routine. You are doing something very feminine.
You should feel that it's helping you to feel feminine. Work that
long tip in and out of your bottom just a little. Lovely! Only
women douche themselves. And now you."
She smiled at him. "Bobbi dear," she went on. "From now on,
whether we're seeing each other or not, I want you to do this for
yourself every day. Whenever you take a shower, cleanse your
insides thoroughly with an enema, and always finish with a douche.
I'll supply your douche kits for you, specially prepared the way
I'd like them to be, perfumed and especially womanly in other ways
too. So I'll know your insides are as sweet as any other part of
you. And you'll know. We'll both be glad you did it, afterward."
Bob nodded, amused and a little puzzled, but still willing to
go along with whatever pleased her. He started feeling especially
comfortable shortly after his douche. Nice. Calm, not at all
nervous. He imagined this was how women feel, why they always
looked so serene. Nothing extraordinary, he was only a woman going
out on a date with his girl.
Then just as they left the bathroom, she suddenly asked him to
bend way over, and before he was quite sure what was happening she
produced a tampon, swiped a bit of jellied lubricant on it, slipped
the plastic tube into his rear end, and then withdrew it, leaving
the tampon itself inside him with a string dangling from his anus.
He let out a little yip, but it was over before he could tense up
or protest. She patted his bottom. "Inside and outside," she
said, and she smiled reassuringly as she led the way back into the
bedroom.
He felt as if he were waddling. His bottom waggled when he
walked, with that tampon inside him. Was that why girls waggled
when they walked? It was an odd sensation. Very full. Somehow
not dissatisfying. He reached down to see what she had done to
him, but except for the soft string his fingers found dangling out
of him, his opening felt the same as when he'd showered or wiped
it, now tight shut, it's new secret well hidden within.
"Now darling," Diana said, her voice slightly amused. "Don't
play with your pussy right now. Just imagine you're having your
period, dear. Girls do, you know. I told you I want your body to
feel feminine inside and out, and there's only one thing you can
put into that opening that would make you feel even more feminine,
isn't there? You don't want that just yet now, dear, do you?"
Bob wasn't sure he had heard what he had heard. "What?" was
all he could utter.
She ignored him "Is it very uncomfortable, dear?" Diana
replied, "If you're feeling cramps I can give you the kind of
pill women take for cramps. Would you like one?"
Bob just shook his head.
"Then let's get started."
They went back into his bedroom and she settled him into his
straight-backed chair facing the bed, where both suitcases lay
open. He was surprised to find he could bend with the tampon in
him. He still felt sort of full, but it wasn't unpleasant.
"You have enough new things to deal with tonight, dear, so we
won't go anywhere that requires high heels." She grinned. "Maybe
after tonight you'll want to kick up your heels and be a party
girl. But not tonight. We'll have a lovely, gentle, easy time of
it, relaxed. I want you to feel very comfortable, to get used to
things."
"What do you mean, get used to things?" Bob finally asked, not
really disturbed but still, not lulled either by her reassurances.
He was going along with her, but she seemed to have some extensive
plans in mind.
"This bra," she said, holding it out to him. "Put it on. Do
you know how? You've seen how women put their bras on. Shall I
help you?"
She did. Bob didn't know if she'd answered his question or
ignored it. She hooked it in front, and he looked down and saw
that he now had a slight rounded cleavage between the cups, his
smooth, hairless chest caught up and compressed by the bra to form
two crescents. "Look at that," he said, in order to say something,
anything at all. Then to let her know he was taking it all in
stride, he added "Do I get big titties too, after a while?"
"Don't worry, Bobbi. All in good time. No breast forms for
you, love. I want you to feel, well...natural. I have wonderful
plans for you. If that means right now you're just one more flat
chested girl wearing a bras with a little padding for shape or for
cleavage, then that's what you are. When you won't want to be that
kind of girl, you won't be. Trust me."
The rest went as he'd imagined and anticipated all week as
he'd looked closely at the gear different women laced and buttoned
and snapped and zipped and snugged and tucked and strapped
themselves into. She showed him how to put on pantyhose, then
watched as he practiced putting on several pair, until she was
satisfied he could handle them with care and respect. They felt
incredible as his legs rubbed against each other. The same with a
cute lace panty girdle she handed him, which turned out to be made
of a tight spandex that held his penis and testicles tucked way
down between his legs. He worried for a moment whether she
expected him to sit on them. She did, so he did. He squirmed onto
one haunch, and she told him to sit square on his pretty bottom, to
keep his knees together, and to cross his ankles whenever he sat
like that. Then she handed him a pair of low-heeled shoes with
little leather bows in front, and a slip that felt wonderful
whenever the insides of his arms accidentally brushed against it.
"Now you're all gussied up, my dear. It's time for you to say
your very own girl name. Bobbi. Say it."
"Bobbi," Bob said. It was what his mother had called him when
he was a kid. Cute, but a little helpless. "Are you sure ....?"
She interrupted him. "Bobbi," Diana repeated, with the least
hint of a stern tone in the way she said it. "Now you've been
christened. Dear Bobbi, turn around, and we'll do your hair.
There isn't much we can do with it now, but it should look a little
fuller, don't you think?"
He felt rebuked, and didn't answer at first. "If full hair
isn't you, we can always give you curls, but that'll take a little
longer. Do you want your hair curled now, Bobbi, or will you
settle for a big hair look until we can bring in a consultant?"
"Big hair is fine," Bob replied hastily. Every time he
hesitated, she seemed to raise the ante on him.
"I think so too, dear. It's more like what you're used to."
Twenty minutes later his hair was up in heat rollers, and
twenty minutes after that she had made up his face, carefully this
time, and plucked his eyebrows until they were high and delicately
shaped, like two thin comets arching together over his eyes. She
hummed as she worked over him, pleased as under her long fingers
Bob disappeared into Bobbi. She reminded Bob of a little girl
playing with her dolls, with total concentration. While she was
shaping his eyebrows, he realized his face would not look feminine
just for tonight, but he didn't want to interrupt her. She said
something about his nails being all right for now as they were, it
was better to do them right later anyway. He was feeling quite
mellow. He managed to smile to himself at just how far he seemed
willing to go to please her.
"I thought so," Diana said. "You love this almost as much as
I do, don't you. Never mind answering, Bobbi, I don't want to
embarrass you. Just slip on this blouse and skirt, and we'll brush
out your hair, and you'll be ready for your grand debut. Hungry?"
"Yes," Bob replied. She never seemed to ask him questions
that allowed any other answer. He stepped into his skirt, fastened
and zipped it up, and turned it on his waist until there was a
pocket at each hip. He slipped his blouse over the rollers bulking
out his hair, and tucked the tail into his skirt. She handed him
a broad belt, and when he'd cinched that tightly, he could almost
believe he had a figure.
"Sweetheart, don't slump. Stick out your chest, and hold your
head high."
The full blouse completely hid Bob's flat chest -- its drapes
and folds promised anything or nothing underneath. Diana looked
closely at that part of him, then reached over, and with her long
fingertips lightly caressed his nipples inside his bra cups. They
felt exquisite!
"Yes," she said aloud, to herself. "This is how we'll do it
for now. Later we can get real."
Bob still didn't understand her. Even so, her fingers felt
delicious, and he thrust his breasts way forward into them. But
she moved her hands on, patted his cheek, then handed him the
jacket matching his skirt. He slipped it on, and saw that it
flared out at his hips as if he really did have a figure.
"See how much nicer this looks now?" She unrolled Bob's hair
and began to brush it out. With the heat and the spray she had
used, each strand curled loosely around itself, and his head was a
huge cluster of soft curls. I'll never look male again with my
hair like this, he thought to himself. But as Diana worked over
him he found to his surprise that the clusters of curls brushed
together didn't look curly but curved, falling full and abundant
down his head and covering the back of his neck, well-shaped and
full of bounce. Not much of a male look either, not at all. It
was what she had called it, big hair, designed to frame his face
with opulent excess, hair to make his face seem petite and pretty,
hair a man could get lost in. But it was his hair. Bob stood up
and looked in his mirror, the same one they'd looked into together
a few days earlier, when she'd lipsticked him. Now he was
lipsticked again. His eyes looked darkly romantic. And everything
else, too. There was nothing masculine at all in what he saw.
"See? You do look lovely," Diana said. "No ponytail tonight.
You're much more attractive wearing it full on the sides and in
back like this." She looked him over carefully, and apparently
approved what she saw, and smiled, pleased. "You like?"
Bob inspected himself in the mirror. What he saw was
reassuring, not a man pretending to be a woman but a thin, rather
pretty girl, not smashingly gorgeous but appealingly vulnerable,
moving with awkward grace as if slightly ashamed of herself. I
suppose I am, he thought to himself. This feels like a girl's first
date. I guess it is. But it isn't *my* first date. He decided to
act more confident. "I like," he replied.
"I just knew you would. I knew it from the moment I saw you
sipping wine by yourself in that bar. I thought, if he only knew
how, he could be a stunning girl, a real charmer, with that long
hair and thin figure, and those delicate features. That's why I
chose you. Did you know you have a very kissable mouth? No, not
now, you'll ruin both of our faces."
She'd seen him like this when they first met? She'd planned
this moment then? What else had she planned?
"Here dear," Diana handed him a light topcoat. "Just throw
this over your shoulders. And carry this purse. Set it down
wherever you see me set mine, but otherwise keep it under your arm.
There's not much in it now. Some makeup, and another tampon --
I'll want you to change yours in the restaurant, to get used to
changing it in ladies' rooms. No money or credit cards yet. That
comes later, perhaps. We'll see."
"Oh yes," she said, handing him a teeny pill. "Just a little
more for now. You'll enjoy yourself more when you're less worried
about things." Bob swallowed it
'Now,' she said, and 'get used to' things. More
mysterious references to plans Diana had never discussed with him.
But no matter. As the pill bit in he didn't care. They went out
the door.
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It turned out to be much easier than Bob thought. The worst
never happened, that he'd be seen to be a man in drag, a mincing,
shameful, self-humiliating pervert. His manhood never came into
question -- it wasn't even implied. As Diana reassured him, he
looked like a nice young lady, and that was what people saw, so
that is what he pretended to be, very carefully, and there was
nothing further to think about it. Except that people treated him
so much nicer! They smiled at him, and Diana had to caution him to
smile back a little more modestly.
She also had to caution him to take smaller steps, and to keep
his elbows tucked in, and to take smaller bites, and to giggle with
her now and then, and to fix his lipstick after dinner, using his
compact as she used hers. Bob could begin to believe they were
what they seemed to be, two women having a sociable dinner
together. Except for a few unfamiliar sensations -- the feel of
nylons rubbing his legs as he walked, the sound of clicking heels
on the sidewalk -- it felt almost like an ordinary date. When they
visited the ladies' room while waiting for the bill, Diana gestured
toward a stall, and Bob entered it, then sat down to pee. He
reached behind him, pulled on the string in his rear, removed his
compacted tampon, then took the fresh one out of his purse and
pushed it into himself with his finger. It was very simple.
As they left the restaurant Diana told him that he was acting
and looking so lovely he'd be wasted sitting in a darkened movie
theater, and besides, she wanted to hold him in her arms, to dance
with him. Her tone of voice was peculiarly insistent, and she
looked intently at him as she spoke. So Bob merely nodded -- he
was her date tonight, she made the plans. He wondered how they'd
manage it without attracting attention, but Diana only laughed and
told him not to worry.
They drove to a place called Sappho's, a luxurious night club
with a first-rate all-girl group beating out the melodies so loud
you could feel it vibrate in your bones, and with two self-absorbed
young women on pedestals shaking their bodies to the beat of the
music. They drank and danced, and danced and drank, and several
times Diana put her elbows on his shoulders while they swayed
across the floor, and threaded her fingers into his hair behind his
head, and pulled his face toward her and kissed him. Each time his
heart melted a little more, so wonderfully full of love for her.
There were other women dancing together too, and being affectionate
with each other, so Bob felt increasingly easy, and Diana even
allowed him to lead a few times.
Once during the evening a rather large, stocky woman in a
purple blouse, her hair in a bun and her face shiny, cheerfully
leaned over their table and asked Bob to dance. "I don't think so,
dear," Diana answered for him, in a voice hard and sharp enough to
shatter ice. The cheer vanished from her face, then the face
itself. "You're mine," she explained gently when the woman had
gone, and Bob had to admit to himself that he was indeed, and that
he loved being hers. A little later, when he was in the Ladies' by
himself straightening his hair and makeup, another girl tried to
hit on him. Bob had to smile at his peculiar attractiveness while
wearing a dress, when he'd never had much luck wearing pants.
But all he said was "I'm taken, honey," in the gentle,
mid-range voice he and Diana had practiced together on their way to
the restaurant, and that left him free to return to Diana
unencumbered. By the time they left Bob had completely forgotten
he was in a dress and stockings and a girdle, his chest bound up in
a bra, and wearing slip-on shoes that clacked when he walked. It
all felt perfectly natural, even ordinary.
Maybe Bob had drunk a bit too much, but when they got back to
his place Diana had to take his key from his purse and open the
door for the two of them, smiling over at him so he wouldn't feel
uneasy about it. He lurched toward the sofa, but she steered him
into his bedroom. He stood there in the gloom. She didn't seem
concerned to find the light switch. Instead she stood close in
front of him and raised her hands high over her head. He did the
same. With a quick tuck of her wrists she undid his belt buckle
and skirt, which fell to his feet, then pulled his blouse over his
head, and set it across a nearby chair inside out. He remembered
his hairdo. Now it didn't matter. He stood in his slip and
stockings and flats. She looked at him, her eyes and lips dark in
the reflected moonlight in the room. An eye gleamed.
"Shall we, lover?"
Yes. Oh, yes.
"Sit on the bed and take off your shoes and those pantyhose."
Yes.
"Now lie back, sweetheart," she said.
He lay back. She was his shadow. He was her sweetheart. He
was on his back. She knelt on the bed beside him, shrugged her
arms up, and her slip flew over her head. Then she reached behind
her and her bra fell away. Bob reached for one of her breasts. It
jiggled nearly out of his reach, so soft, so elusive!
He struggled onto an elbow to remove his own slip.
"No," she said. "Let me do everything."
No, he thought. Yes.
"Leave your bra and slip on now." She kissed him on the lips.
So softly. No semen. Her lips.
My bra. My slip. Like my hand. My skin. A part of me I
possess. A part of me that's me. Naturally. I wear my bra and
slip. So softly.
"Wear them all day tomorrow," she said. "Every day from now
on. Promise?" Her hands moved across his nipples, and he felt her
slide the material of his slip against the tips of his bra cups,
firming and smoothing it against the sides of his breasts. Her
thumbs kept feeling him up.
"All day."
"For me. You'll think about me."
"Yes."
"Under your dress. Tomorrow. All day."
His dress tomorrow? She mounted him, knees on either side of
his hips, reared herself up, and began to undulate his stiffened
prick into her, her hand floating over his bra, caressing his
breasts. He was entering her! She was surrounding him!
"It will feel wonderful."
"Yes" Bob said, his eyes closed, all of his attention
centered on his groin, the place where their two groins joined, and
the enrichment of feeling brought on by her hands on his nipples.
Yes, naturally.
"Always. From now on. All the time, even when we make love."
"Yes"
"Except to sleep. Then wear a nightie." He had slid all the
way into her now, and he could feel her pussy muscles spasm on the
base of his prick as if to milk him.
"Yes"
She began to rotate her pelvis on him. "You're my adorable,
precious girl," she said.
"Yes," he said, eyes shut, clenching his buttocks up into her
as she responded by pressing herself down on him.
Now she seemed to be squirreling and squeezing him deeper and
deeper, all the way into her, and he was rising into a delicious
place he had never before entered. He knew he couldn't hold off
much longer.
"That's what you are! Aren't you?"
"Yes," he said, rising to meet her.
"What is it you are? For me? From now on?"
"G-g-girl," he called out to her from the sweet, sweet
darkness spreading now rapidly through him.
"What kind of girl?"
"Adorable...!" he said, her sweetness spreading through his
body into his breasts, and arms. He was helpless. "Precious."
"My girl. Even when I'm not here. All the time. From now
on."
"Yours! Yes!"
"My darling, darling girl. You'll be so pretty. You're my
pretty girl now, aren't you?"
"Yes! Yes!"
"You are!"
He could think of nothing more glorious than to be what she
said he was.
"I am!"
"You want to be my girl."
"Yes!"
"You want me to help you become a real girl!"
"Yes!"
"You'll do anything I say?" And Diana lifted herself up
nearly off his penis, his cock head barely held by her soft pussy
lips, and suspended herself there. Bob went out of his mind.
"Yes! Yes! Anything! Yes!"
He tried to lift himself back into her. All of his yearning
concentrated on slipping back in, becoming her, becoming whatever
she wanted, being hers, adorable, precious, oh how infinitely
sweet, sweet, the quintessence of her, a girl.
"Yes! Yes! Yes!"
"Again."
"Oh, yes, Diana, yes!"
And with that she sank back down onto him and clamped herself
to his crotch, and he lifted himself up into her and came, and
came, and came, each spurt an affirmation plunged deep into her
while she smiled and squeezed him with her pussy, milking his prick
until finally he had no more sperm to give her. He was near
fainting with the pleasure of it. He never noticed that she didn't
come at all. She just smiled, as if deeply satisfied in a
different way..
When he found his breath again she was lying with her head on
his chest, her hair falling over him in all directions, his
softened penis still inside her.
"Yes," she said. "My sweet, adorable, precious girl. Mine.
From now on."
"Yes," he replied in his rich afterglow. This was quite a
game. He wondered how seriously she was playing it.
"Yes," she confirmed, and she began to suckle on him. His
body began again to squeeze toward feelings of ecstasy. "My
precious girl," she said.
And they resumed. As his penis hardened, his body seemed to
melt into hers. It didn't seem to matter to her that his body was
being pleasured by hers, not hers with his, that all she seemed to
want for herself was his consent to anything she wanted to do now
or hereafter, the one thing she asked for repeatedly, in many
forms. As if declaring his love for her over and over, he
surrendered his manhood to her repeatedly, blissfully, each time
she asked. He grew hard again, and squirted his girl-juices into
her again. He was her precious girl. From now on. Yes.
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