Friday ~ June 18, 1999 ~ 1:28am 

Who Am I?

As I ponder...

I realize that I've been very much affected by my surroundings. 

I've been too concerned with the problems in my life,  and I haven't really spent some time with the fundamental question,

"Who Am I?"

I feel now that I had been trapped inside certain ideas about who I thought I was,  but now I must simply BE.

I just need to tap into my own true nature and just be myself.   It seems as though I had been judging myself in regards to how others thought of me,  when I should have just been ME all along.

I had a good talk with Nate today.   We're trying to put the band together and it's an uphill battle.   We just need to get that first rehearsal going,  then the wheels will be in motion.

My wife and I had a meeting tonight regarding the new band.   She has commited to being my manager/public relations person,  and so we went over various aspects of what this new band is going to be.   And now I feel she will finally get to use that Master's Degree in Marketing.

I'm beginning to feel good about getting this new band together.   I haven't been working...   not nearly enough to say I'm back on my feet,  but I feel good about myself and feel good about getting it together.

I've started exercising with my wife,  and that's helped out quite a bit regarding my depression.   My exercise goal is to get into the best aerobic conditioning I possibly can get into before I start playing heavily again.