Boy, can I bitch a blue streak...and I will if I want to! :P
Please note that these are my opinions, thoughts, and feelings. Feel free to flame me. Go on. I dare you.
This is a half-flame, half-rant I wrote in my LiveJournal about an incident from last year, which I will rant about later if I have the time.
I guess now that my journal has been discovered by one of the people I least wanted to find it (and no, Sue, I'm not mad at you for this. It's not like it isn't my fault or anything, showing you that funny IM conversation from when Anton was drunk), I would like to make this statement:
I apologize for what I have said in here about the following people: Ike, Jenice, Katie Swimm (who I still think is a bitch a lot of the time but is not really a bad person), Jacki Chiang, Candi, Mary Katona, and anyone else I wrote about in the heat of passion. Even though I do not like some of these people, it was wrong to attack, say, Jackie, even though I dislike how she treated me.
I do not apologize for anything said in here about anyone involved in a CERTAIN INCIDENT in tenth grade. I do not care for any overtures made by the guilty party (and you know who you are, and yes, you are guilty; anyone who does something like that is guilty) and I make no amends. I have admitted freely that in the course of my life I behaved quite like an animal and/or a two year old. I have freely admitted that up until this year I have had unwarranted and WARRENTED (pick whichever spelling looks best to you please) outbursts in public places. There are several reasons for this.
Number one, I am manic depressive. You all laughed at me when I told you that-I recall a certain 'dry-wall installer" jibe from this exact lunch period in eighth grade-but it is true. I have been clinically dianosed with manic-depression. You probably won't believe me, but I don't really care.
Number two, I was stuck in an abusive relationship-and I DO NOT MEAN MATT. I was "friends" with one or more (and I'm not saying which and it's probably not going to be the answer you tell people it is) overbearing, egocentric, self-centered, inconsiderate, snobby, selfish, two-faced, hypocritical, megalomaniacal people (or a single person) who constantly devalued my self-worth, hurt my feelings, decreased my self-esteem, and frankly made my life a living hell.
Number three, I was constantly ill from stress. SOme of it was my fault. Some of it was not.
REGARDLESS!
Read whatever you want in here. Go ahead. I invite you warmly. Leave all the comments you want.
PLEASE TELL ME AGAIN THE FOLLOWING:
1. That I am "bitter" because "nobody in their right mind would want to touch [me]." (I assure you, this has been proven untrue. In fact, it's been proven untrue since September at the latest.)
2. That "everyoe hates [me] and wants to get away from [me] and [I] ruin everyone's day" by just being in it. (This depends on the person)
3. That I am 'crazy". (I'm not terribly stable, but I assure you I'm far from being clinically insane. I'm not even bi-polar enough to need medication.)
4. That a certain someone is soooooooooooo much easier to be friends with than myself. (I hate laughing at this. I really do.)
5. That little remark (verbatim quote) 'Whatever. I'm going to go call my friends. What are YOU gonna do?" sould be retracted because it's a totally ridiculous and untrue statement. At 11:30 PM? Come on...
There were other lovely things told to me this night, but these are the silliest of the bunch. I reprint them (and you can see all the things that were said to me about myself in earlier entries) only to show those I have hidden the truth from.
Although in fact, I bet you don't care.
That's the rub, kids:
YOU
NEVER
CARED
...and I believe another cute statement was something along the lines of, "...[you] don't have TIME to care about anyone but [yourself]."
If this true, don't try making friends anymore.
To Jess-endless source of love, Emily-always there for me, my friends from Esper-so collectively great, I'd need more space, Kris-always true to me, Jamie-never stops making me laugh, Alex-one of my best friends, Ike-been with me through good and bad and never gave up, Matt-I know you still read this and that you will always be my number one leaning post...and any other of my friends, from this area or another who read this, I thank you. You have all shown me what true friends really are.
All others-get fucked.
INTERNET RESPONSIBILITY
Okay, let's say you're the owner/admin/whatever you want to call it of a fairly popular message board-group blog-whatever. The board (or whatever) has been around for quite a while, long enough for you to establish a few great clique-y sort of friends, and become disillusioned with everyone else.
So you get frustrated and/or bored, and close down the service. WITHOUT TELLING ANYONE. That means that any users, except perhaps your own friends and POSSIBLY your hostees, don't have any idea what has happened to the boards.
I'm all for telling people to fuck off when they annoy you. I'm all for giving up on something you think is boring. I'm also all for common courtesy, and I think letting people for whom you run a service know that you're closing the service is important.
I also don't get those sites that shut down just because the webmaster got hung up on some miniscule little picky thing. Take for example the Everchanging Sailormoon Gateway. Why did Janelle close down what was one of the best and most popular sites on the net? Well, for one she didn't really LIKE BSSM anymore. That's a valid reason. However, her main reason was that she was sick and tired of people stealing her signature .GIF.
This in itself is reasonable, except for the fact that Janelle claimed it was specially created for her by an artist. Um, yeah...
I wrote a long rant about this a few months ago, which I'll eventually post here. The point is, DON'T BE A BRAT!
