According to World Health Organization, 800 000 people take away their lives in each year, and that is equivalent to one person killing himself/herself in 40 seconds. Suicide is a global phenomenon, you wouldn't know that every person you meet is having a great depression which could be a suicidal person. Though I know that not every suicidal person is going to commit suicide, she might be torn to both life and death. You might be thinking why I thought about writing this, from so many topics to be talked about I got to the dark side. It is because in my current situation, I didn't even imagine at first that there are suicidal persons around me. But why? Why are there people like this?
My friend is an example. My friend (I'll just keep her name) whom I have known so much is actually a suicidal person. I didn't even believe in her at the first time, I thought she was joking. But one of the first things I notice is she is always mentioning about dying. She thinks that she doesn't deserve to be in this world because she feels she was born to suffer. And could I argue more once she told me what happened in her life that I wasn't aware of? Family problems, people judging her so much because of what she is, abuse, these that are always circling around her life. And I did say, "Come on, we all get to those problems. There is no person who has no problems. It's not an excuse to suicide." But even when she was still very little, around, maybe 5 up, she already experienced those things. I know I couldn't say anything because I couldn't imagine myself undergoing those situations. Hope is just like counting your hair in one day, impossible. She had lost it. I tried to give her back that light by saying to her to go back to God. But then she would say that she tried but nothing happened.
And then I said to learn to love herself so that she wouldn't feel so bad at situations for she knows that she'll be okay. She said that it's hard to love herself for even people can't accept her, how can she do. Bringing her back is so like a needle in a haystack. But how could more people actually help her if she is not evident from her actions that she is greatly depressed. By this, I say that you can never know a person's situation unless you dig deeper. Well, in my case, I dug that hole unintentionally. I can't really tell the whole ideas of being a suicidal person, for I said she doesn't show great symptoms of "suicide alert." But, usually as I hear, it's very clear in her where I heard sometimes he/she slices the usual part of the forearm where suicidal persons try to cut their veins that are connected to the heart. As she has said, she needs help because she was never helped before. Probably maybe one of the turnbacks of her suicidal decisions. Maybe someone who definitely cares whom she may not have tasted. I can feel that she is still clinching to a blade and waiting for something to spark.
Now here it is, why do I really think many people suicide?
Every one can have that suicide feeling but there are billions of people around the world, yet based on data, it's not even a million, so my point here is not the question thinking why many people suicide, but why people think of it.And that ends this page's content. Again, life is a precious thing we should take care of because it was given. There are more things to look at the bright side if we just open our eyes and find it.