It has been a while since I posted a blog, however it does not in anyway indicate inactivity in my life. In fact, it maybe too much going on. In the past month, my world has been turned upside down and I am no longer sure of any decisions I have made along the way. Today was really rough on me and I am trying to do what is right for me. Along that road, I am hurting someone else for something that I am not even sure if it is the right thing for me. A wise individual strongly suggested that perhaps I put my thoughts out in writing, with hope that this process would eventually lead me to an answer.



Today and perhaps the next few days, I will be breaking my own rule about right a blog entry. I didn't want to write about deep thought stuff due to the fact that I do not believe anyone would be interested in reading such things, however based on the virtual non-existent audience base I have accumulated thus far, I believe I am safe from boring the daylights out of the readers. Due to my current circumstances with this particular individual, I hope with all my might that he is visiting my blog entries. I have to sort out my thoughts over some time so I can tell him what I am needing and what I want.



For tonight, I want him to know that I do love him with all my heart. The last thing he told me was that he is praying very hard that I will be able to find my happiness. And that he will pray very hard that I find that happiness within our relationship. I hope and I pray that my answers will lead to him.
I miss you and I love you with all my heart.