Title: If They Only Knew
Author: Jenn
The Disclaimer & Such: Sadly *sniffle* I do not own Roswell or any of
its characters. Max, Liz & co. belong to Melinda Metz & the United
Paramount Network (You lucky people). All other characters in the story are
mine. But if I had my way I would definitely own Jason Behr ;)~~ ok that's
enuff I'm getting carried away. On with the show.
Rating: R ~ For situations and language
Category: Would you expect anything else? M/L mostly but the gang's
all there. Hey I�m a total Dreamgirl!!
Summary: For three and a half years, Elizabeth Parker has kept a
dark secret from her friends. The real question is if her friends knew her
secret would they all still love her?
Author�s Note:This is a Tess-free Alterna-Roswell. Let�s pretend that
they rescued Max and things went back to what they consider to be normal.
Nasedo did replace Pierce but little Miss Homewrecker Harding died in a car
accident a few years back so technically their destinies don�t exist anymore.
This story takes place towards the end of their junior year (April-May).
Feedback: Greatly appreciated.......I know I still haven�t finished �My
Ain�t That Just An Interesting Twist of Fate� yet but I got the inspiration
for this one and felt compelled to write it. I hope you like it.
Now on to your regularly scheduled fanfic.................
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Prologue (The Things Nightmares Are Made Of)
For this part we�re seeing flashbacks of Liz�s life through her
dreams:
We see a 13 year old version of Liz at a party. It�s obvious that she really
shouldn�t be there due to the fact that the party goers are for the most
part drunk. It�s all high school seniors. A tall blonde approaches Liz and
hands her a cup.
�Here ya go Lizzie. No chugging. This is the only beer you�re getting all night.
Got me? I will not be responsible for the perfect Elizabeth Parker getting
trashed at a party which she really shouldn�t be at in the first place.� He
laughs as he sits down next to her.
�Marcus Joseph Parker I am not going to get drunk. I�m more responsible
then that. I just don�t wanna look stupid in front of all your friends.� She
declared as she takes a rather large sip of the drink.
�I know Lizzie, just please be careful. I�m supposed to keep an eye on you
while you�re here in Texas.�
�Marc calm down. I�ll be fine. No one ever said Mom and Dad have to know I
was at this party.�
�The Perfect Lil Miss Elizabeth Parker lying?? Can it be true? Oh be still my
beating heart.� he clutched his chest mockingly.
She threw him a fake �Oh I�m so hurt� look �I�m not lying, I�m just not
planning on telling my parents everywhere I went while staying with
you.�
He put his arm around her �You know, you�re all right coz.� She laughs �You
ain�t so bad yourself buddy.� She takes another sip he looks at her in total
amazement �Hey I said no chugging.� she gives him an angelic smile �But it�s
really good I can�t help it.�
At this point another guy approaches Liz and Marc. He�s a tall attractive
and well built redhead with the most gorgeous blue eyes.
�Hey Marc, mind if I ask your cousin to dance with me?� He questions while
motioning towards a partially tipsy Liz.
�Sure but behave. If you do anything to hurt Lizzie I�ll have to hurt you.�
Marc says as he slaps his friend on the back.
Kevin turns to Liz and extends his hand �Ms. Parker, would you care to
dance?� she stumbles up and grabs his hand.
�But of course Mr. Montalvo.� she turns towards Marc and grins �I�ll be right
back. Don�t go anywhere.�
Just as Kevin leads Liz to dance, a tall brunette passes them and sits in
Marc�s lap. He kisses her passionately. (That�s Marc�s girlfriend and Kevin�s
twin sister Jana.)
Dream Scene switches
back to Liz & Kevin
After grinding for about ten minutes, Liz stops and says �Hey Kevy, could
you get me a drink? I�m thirsty but no beer though. Remember what Marc
said.�
�Sure Liz I�ll be right back.� a devious smile crosses his lips as he heads
towards the drink table. He pours a beer for himself and a Pepsi for Liz. But
before going back he slips some kinda pill in Liz�s cup and stirs it vigorously.
�This is going to be a very good night. A very, very good night.� he
thinks to himself. He picks up the two cups and paces back over to
Liz.
Dream Scene now switches to
Liz & Kevin in a bedroom making out.
A very intoxicated Kevin is on top of Liz who is barely coherent
herself.
�Kevin what was in that drink? I feel so funny now.� she questions as he�s
kissing her neck. She tries to push him off of her but it�s not working she�s
too weak.
�Calm down baby. I only gave you something to make you relax a little. Don�t
fight what you know you want.� he replied as he continues to kiss
her.
�Kevin stop it. I don�t want to do this. Not here, not now, and not like this.�
she sobbed. He backhands her across the face and pins her back
down.
�Don�t make this difficult Liz.� he proceeds to remove her clothes and his
own.
Sobs wrack her body as he enters her. She�s too weak to fight him off any
longer so she just lets him do it. �Please let him stop soon. Please let him
stop soon.� Liz thinks to herself as she cries silently.
He finally rolls off her and starts to put his clothes back on. He turns to her
and grabs her arm tightly
�If you ever and I mean ever tell anyone about this, I�ll kill you and whoever
you told. Understand?� From the look on his face, she knew he wasn�t
kidding. She nodded and put her clothes back on.
Dream switches to Marc�s house
about 1 month later
Liz, Marc, and her Uncle Tony are sitting at the table eating dinner. Her
Uncle notices that she really hasn�t eaten, instead she just moved the food
around on the plate. This causes him to become extremely
concerned.
�Elizabeth, what�s going on you haven�t even touched your food?� he looks at
her with the �concerned parent� look in his eyes.
�Nothing Uncle Tony I, I swear.� She tries her damnedest to look truthful
but it doesn�t work. There�s no fooling a Parker when you�re lying.
�Don�t lie Lizzie, it doesn�t suit you well. I happen to know you�re not sleeping
too well either.� Marc shot her the classic �I�m a Parker too, so you might as
well tell me because I�m bound to find out anyway� look.
Good going Liz she silently scolded herself They were gonna find out
sooner or later about what happened. Might as well tell them now and get it
over with. But then again later is better then sooner. Besides Kevin was
serious when he said that he�d kill you and whoever you tell.
�I just don�t feel well that�s all.� Please believe that excuse I really don�t
wanna have to tell you. Again she wasn�t sounding too convincing.
�Nope still not buying it young lady. Now either you tell Marc and I or I�ll be
forced to give your parents a call in Roswell.� He stands up and walks toward
the phone. Liz jumps up and pulls her Uncle�s arm back just as he was about
to pick up the phone.
She begins crying hysterically �No you can�t Uncle Tony please. They�ll hate
me.� she falls to her knees and puts her head in her hands.
Her uncle is completely shocked at how she was behaving. He had never
known Liz to ever have something to cry about, she was always so happy. He
kneels down next to her and wraps one arm around her.
�Lizzie what is it? I don�t think your parents could hate you no matter what
you do. I know I couldn�t. Just tell us sweetie, it might make you feel
better.� he said in his most reassuring tone.
�I can�t� she choked back a sob �He�ll hurt me if I tell.� At this point Marc
was kneeling on the other side of her. He was extremely worried because
this wasn�t his normally happy-go-lucky little cousin.
�Who Liz?� he grabbed her chin and forced her to look him in the eyes �No
one is going to hurt you as long as I�m around. Just me tell what it is. What�s
going on babe?�
She hesitates for a minute a she glances between Marc and Tony. When she
looks at Marc she sees a look of determination in his eyes. He�s right, they
won�t let anyone hurt me. Especially Marc. Just tell them and this nightmare
will be over with. She somehow isn�t so afraid to tell him
anymore.
�Kevin.� That�s it the one name said it all. She broke down in her Uncle�s arms
again as a wave of anger washed over Marc.
�That son-of-a-bitch.� he clenched his fists �When I find the bastard he is
gonna pay for this. When did it happen Lizzie?�
�The party.� She managed to mumble in between sniffles.
By this time he was absolutely furious. He quickly made his way towards the
front door and grabbed his keys.
�Marc where in the hell are you going?� Tony Parker questioned still not
completely sure of what was going on.
Marc turned around and looked Liz straight in the eyes �To teach that sick
fuck a lesson.� He slammed the door with such force that you could have
sworn that it should have came off its hinges. The next thing they knew,
Marc had peeled out of the driveway and was racing down the
street.
It was at that moment that he finally understood the entire situation. The
realization hit hard. He pulled Liz closer and whispered �I�m so sorry Lizzie.
It�s gonna be okay. Everything�s gonna be okay. I�m here for you sweetie.�
She looked up at him as he began wiping the tears off her tear-streaked
face. I hope Mom and Dad are this understanding. I�m so sorry for this.
It�s all my fault. It�s all my fault. She thought as she looked at her
Uncle..
Liz�s Next Dream Sequence
Liz is sitting on an examining table with Mrs. Parker sitting next to her. She
looks absolutely panic-stricken at this point because they�ve been waiting for
the doctor for what seems like forever. �I hope he doesn�t tell me what I
think he probably will. My teenage years will be over almost before they
began.� Liz�s thoughts are interrupted as the doctor walks back
in.
�Elizabeth, Mrs. Parker� he shut the door as Liz braced for the news she
already thought she knew �I have some news for you both.� Liz began
shaking violently as her mother grabbed her hand and prepared for what
they both knew he was going to say �I�m sorry to have to tell you both but
Liz, you�re five weeks pregnant.� The news brought both mother and
daughter to tears. Nancy Parker Liz to her and held her so fiercely it was
almost as if she�d never let her go ever again. Her mother kept repeating
the same sentence over and over �It�s gonna be okay baby.�.
Final Dream Sequence:
Eight Months Later
Liz is in the delivery room of some hospital (Not in Roswell for obvious
reasons) about to give birth. Her parents are on each side of her holding one
of her hands. Nancy is wiping the sweat from her daughter�s forehead. Poor
Liz has been in labor for 5 hours and is ready to give up.
�C�mon Lizzie, just one more push baby. You can do it.� Her father urged
her.
�No Daddy I can�t it hurts so much. Make it stop.� Liz cried out as another
contraction washed over her.
�Yes you can sweetie.�
�One last push. If this baby isn�t out then tough, because I�m in a lot of pain
here.�
Liz pushed one last time and the sound of her crying was finally replaced by
the wails of her newborn.
Liz smiled as her Mom patted her forehead and her father told her. �You
did good baby.� She sat back absolutely relieved as the pain
subsided.
�Do I have a boy or a girl?� She questioned eagerly as the nurses cleaned
her baby up.
�Ms. Parker you have a healthy baby girl.� The doctor said as his nurse
handed Liz her daughter. She burst into tears as she held her for the first
time.
�My daughter.� Liz stated in absolute amazement. �She�s my
daughter.�
�Yes and she�s so beautiful Lizzie.� Her mother smiled �What are you going
to name her?�
Liz contemplated it for a moment, then she spoke: �I think I�ll name her
Montega. Montega Lynn Parker.�
�That�s a beautiful name. Where did you get it from?�
�It was in the book of names Mom gave me. I don�t remember what it means
but I love the sound of it.� Her father smiled at how awestruck his wife and
daughter were by the tiny infant in Liz�s arms.
�God Jeff, she looks just like Liz did when she was born.� Nancy gushed as
she held one of Montega�s tiny hands.
�Yep that she does.�
Liz glanced up at her mother and then shifted her gaze to her father. She
finally had enough courage to ask THE question that had been irking her for
the last 7 1/2 months.
�Mom, Dad, how come you never fought me when I said that I wanted to
keep Montega?� Nancy and Jeff were caught off guard by their daughter�s
question. They glanced at each other for a moment then Jeff spoke
�Because......� he said as he smoothed his daughter�s long brown hair �you�ve
been through enough pain and heartache. I could never ask you to give your
baby up.� He said in all honesty.
Nancy cut in �We told you that we�ll get through this sweetie. We�re not
going to take her away from you. Don�t you ever worry about that. No one
will know about Montega until you�re ready to tell them about her.� she
reassured Liz.
�Besides one look at this little heartbreaker and I wouldn�t want her to be
raised by anyone other than her heartbreaker of a mother. And it would be
wrong to separate any of the Parker women from each other, even though
I�m so unfairly outnumbered now.� They all laughed as Montega gurgled
happily in Liz�s arms.
Her happy dream was interrupted by a familiar voice yelling.
End of Liz�s Dream Sequence
�Elizabeth Ann Parker wake your ass up now!� She awoke to her mother
sitting on the edge of her bed.
�Morning sleepyhead.�
�Mom can�t I have a few more minutes.� she looked at her clock �It�s 5:30
in the morning.� �Why am I up?�
�You had best get up and get dressed because I happen to know that a
certain 3 year old is waiting downstairs for a certain mother of hers.� she
calmly stated as she handed Liz her outfit and two towels.
�Oh god, I totally forgot she was coming today.� Liz jumped out of bed and
made a mad dash for the bathroom. The next thing Nancy Parker knew Liz
had showered, gotten dressed, and raced downstairs towards the cafe, all in
a matter of maybe five minutes. She smiled as she shook her head �See
what a little motivation can get a teenager to do?� She laughed at the
thought and then proceeded to make her way downstairs.
Downstairs at the Crashdown
Liz had raced downstairs and practically burst out the door that led to the
cafe.
Sitting at the counter were her Uncle Tony, Aunt Terese, and cousin Marc.
Next to Marc was a cute little brunette.
�Where�s my little angel?� Liz asked excitedly as the little girl spun around
on her seat and hopped down.
�Mamamamamama!� The little girl chanted as she ran towards Liz�s
outstretched arms. Liz picked her up and swung her around.
�How�s my little angel doing?�
�I�m good Mama. Aunt Terese took me shopping yesterday. I got a new dress
and a pretty shirt with purple flowers on it!� She exclaimed as she and Liz
sat down.
�That�s great princess. Why don�t you go say Hi to your Grandma and
Grandpa. They�re waiting upstairs for you.�
She slipped off Liz�s lap �Okay Mama. I be right back.� she bounded out the
door and up the backstairs.
Liz turned to her Aunt, Uncle and cousin and smiled. �How has she been
behaving lately?� She questioned even though she knew the answer was the
same as always.
�Just like a Mini-Liz would.� Marc laughed. They had referred to her as
Mini-Liz since the day she was born because her resemblance to Liz was
uncanny, except for the fact that she had these incredibly enchanting blue
eyes.
�She�s just like you Liz. Always asking questions. Sometimes she�s a little too
smart for her own good. She�s a total neat freak just like her mother.
Marc�s right she is a mini-you.� her Uncle beamed.
She sighed �I�m so glad she�s finally coming to live here. I�ve hated to leave
her every weekend these last few years. She�s my little girl and she belongs
here with me. I think, I mean I hope, I�m finally ready to take care of her
full time. I�ve been so worried that I won�t be a good mother to her.� She
felt tears stinging her eyes.
Her Aunt got up and engulfed Liz in a hug. �I know you have Lizzie. But it�s
gonna be better now. You won�t have to sneak around anymore. And you know
that little girl loves you with all her heart. You�re an incredible mother
especially considering the circumstances. You�ve made the best of the cards
you were dealt sweetie. You�ve made so many sacrifices for Montega over
the years. And I�m sure once she�s old enough, she�ll appreciate all of it.�
Terese Parker stated matter-of-factly as she brushed the tears away from
her youngest niece�s eyes.
�I know it�s just that I hate lying to all my friends.� Her voice lowered and,
all hope drifted out of her tone as she continued. �I hate lying to Max. I love
him so much and I don�t want this to be the reason we break up. I mean
C�mon this isn�t some tiny little secret. This is big.� She felt the tears
threatening to spill from her eyes again.
�But sweetie he loves you. You said it yourself, you two believe that you are
soulmates. I�ve seen how devoted Max is to you. I actually share your opinion
on the subject. You two are meant for each other. I honestly don�t think he�ll
be upset. Just surprised and maybe a little disappointed that you didn�t tell
him sooner. If anything I think all your friends will be supportive Max
especially.� Liz turned around to see her mother and father had come
in.
Nancy handed Montega to her. Liz held her daughter close as images of her
friends reactions danced across her mind. They were that of anger and
confusion. And that scared her. �I hope you�re right Mom.� She mumbled.
I really do. She added silently as she looked at her daughter who was
busy playing with her hair. �Not only for my sake but for Montega�s too.�
�Grandpa says that if they take one look at me they won�t be able to stay
mad.� Montega explained �He also said that once your boyfriend sees me he�ll
adore me because I�m a miniature version of you.�
Liz looked at her daughter with knowing eyes. �I�m sure that Grandpa�s right
baby.� She couldn�t help but smile. �She�s definitely got my sense of
optimism. Liz thought. She�s really going to need that when she�s older.
I just hope that Dad�s right and they really do forgive me for not telling
them sooner. I really need them to be there for us.�
**TBC**
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