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*When moonlight crawls along the street
Chasing away the summer heat*

//I've been watching the sunlight creep along the street, leaving darkness in its wake. I know he'll be here soon. He always comes when the sun goes down. He won't leave me. I know. I feel his desperation. His need to penetrate me, penetrate the darkness that calls to me. He brings me back time and time again from the brink, brings me back from the abyss I'm trying to lose myself in.//

*Footsteps outside somewhere below
The world revolves I've let it go*

//He's coming. He's coming to me, to keep me sane, to keep me here. He makes me real, makes me what I am. Every tender caress, kiss, breath, the look in his eyes when he makes me his, he's coming now; I don't have long to wait. Soon, I won't have to think anymore, I'll only have to feel, feel him, all of him, as he breathes life into me.//

*We build our church above the street
We practice love between these sheets*

//I can hear him at the door. Standing there, scant minutes that feel like hours. I know what he's doing; he's composing himself before he enters to greet me. We both know why he's here. We both know, we both want it, and yet he fights it, for scant minutes he fights it, and then he gives in, when he opens the door, he caves, my scent overwhelming him. My misery making him want, need, groan with suppressed desire.//

*The candy sweetness scent of you
It bathes my skin I'm stained by you*

< His scent washes over me. I swear I can't get enough of him. He's a fire that burns in me, warming my cold flesh with his life, his breath, his heartbeat. I crave his heartbeat, I can hear it blocks away, and if my heart could beat it would be beating the same erratic pace, the same skip when I finally looked into his eyes. I can hear his breath catching, and I know that I do that. >

*And all I have to do is hold you
There's a racing within my heart
I am barely touching you*

< I don't even have to touch him. His heart races, his breath hitches in his throat, choking him, and the cloying scent of his arousal hits the air. My nose twitches at the scent of him; my cock gives a lively twitch, pressing hard against the edge of my zipper, painfully hard. For him, always for him. >

*Turn the lights down low*

< I slowly dim the lights as I begin walking towards him, watching his eyes grow wide, and round >

*Take it off
Let me show*

//He's slowly peeling his clothes away from his alabaster skin, revealing his well muscled form, and I can't help but gasp at the pure beauty of him. Hard angles, and softly glowing whiteness, consume me. He consumes me. He's almost to the bed when I hear his zip go down. I close my eyes at the bolt of desire, hot and pure, hits the pit of my stomach, making it drop out from beneath me, at that cold column of velvety steel. I want him, at the threat of eternal hellfire, I want him.//

*My love for you
Insatiable*

//He's sliding on the bed now, and I can't help but open my arms to him. I need to hold him close. I hiss as his cold flesh comes into contact with my overheated skin. The cold sparking a fire deep within me, it burns brightly, out of control, consuming me, the answering fire burning deep inside his aquiline blue eyes. He wants to devour me whole, make me a part of him. So help me I want it more and more with each passing day.//

*Turn me on
Never stop
Wanna taste every drop*

< I can feel the bloody whelp trying to leave my arms, and like the sodden nancy boy I've become I clutch at him not wanting him to leave. Wanting him in my arms until he draws his last breath, but feeling his warm mouthing my neck, my chest, trying to move lower, I gasp and release him. Feeling the fire move over my nipples, biting, licking, sucking, I arch into his mouth. So hot, so wet. my coherency quickly losing its edge, as I feel him slip lower, his tongue darting out into my navel, as his chest hair, brushes gently over my cock. I gasp and arch into the scratchy caress, the stimulation almost sending me spiraling out of control >

*My love for you
Insatiable*

//I gently lick the tip of his cock, taking slow leisurely swipes at it, hearing him growl, feeling his hands tunnel into my hair, his fingers kneading my scalp, I slowly open my mouth and devour him.//

*The moonlight plays upon your skin
A kiss that lingers takes me in*

< I feel his mouth sliding down my cock, swallowing me whole, he means to take all of me this time. I growl, grabbing his arms and yanking him up to meet me, plundering his mouth with my tongue, plunging, staking my claim, wanting so much more. The want the need it's burning deep inside, I don't want to lose control, don't want to scare him. He's being so pliant in my arms, as I roll him onto his side, his back pressed against my chest. I reach behind me to the lube I know he keeps tucked under his pillow. Unstopping the cap, and quickly coating my fingers, I trail my other hand over his sensitive skin, listening to him moan, watching the hair on his arm and side rise under my touch. My hand goes unerringly to the slightly puckered hole at the base of his spine, fingers slipping inside with ease. Stretching him, pulling him, wanting to make him mine this fierce desire, it takes me over, makes me over into what he needs. I only ever want to be what he needs. >

*I fall asleep inside of you
There are no words
There's only truth*

//I know that what he feels for me may not be real. I know, I just don't care, because when he's holding me like this, touching me, kissing me, I can fool myself for a little while that he loves me. He needs me, I can feel my climax approaching, feel the truth inside him, his gasping breath, the way he moans my name. He makes my demon sleep, the demon eating away at me, tearing me apart, he makes it sleep, makes me feel like me again, makes me feel. I gasp his name, it's going to be over to soon.//

*Breathe in Breathe out
There is no sound
We move together up and down
We levitate our body's soar
Our feet don't even touch the floor
And nobody knows you like I do
'Cos the world they don't understand
But I grow stronger in your hands*

< He's fallen asleep on me again. I love it when he sleeps in my arms, so soft and warm, pliant against me. He's mine. I feel the darkness in him, I know he feels it, senses it, knows it could destroy him, but he's mine, I won't let any darkness claim him except me. >

*Turn the lights down low
Take it off
Let me show
My love for you
Insatiable
Turn me on
Never stop
Wanna taste every drop
My love for you
Insatiable*

//Even when I'm dreaming I'm in his arms, wrapped tightly against the tide, the flood of pain that comes from day to day living. He is me, he is everything I know is sane in this world, but he is also the most dangerous part. The part of me I try to hide from, the part he puts to sleep, he embodies all those things, and yet, still he's more, so much more. I can feel him kissing my ear and my body begins to stir. He nips at my neck and once again I'm painfully hard, erection hard against my stomach. Throbbing painfully.//

*We never sleep we're always holdin' hands
Kissin' for hours talkin' makin' plans
I feel like a better man
Just being in the same room*

< I don't know when I became such a poof. Bad as Peaches I am. Brood boy would smile in pride to see his grandson turning out just like him. I sigh, and can feel his hair move softly against my chin. The silky soft texture begging to be touched, my fingers itching to bury themselves in the velvet depths of his satiny black hair. I'm only here for him. I try because of him. He needs me like no one has needed me in over. well ever really. He gives as well as receives. He gives me sanity where before there was only chaos. He makes me calm. humph if that's possible, he gave me my first taste of peace in the whole of my unlife. >

*We never sleep there's just so much to do
So much to say
Can't close my eyes when I'm with you
Insatiable the way I'm loving you*

//He's staring at me again, and I feel like I'm melting into him, drowning in the blue depths of his inscrutable eyes. I feel the love shining in his every touch, his desire to please, and his desire to be loved and pleased in return. He shows me without words how much he loves me, and I just have to hope someday he'll tell me. He'll say the words I'm longing to hear, the words I only have the courage to say in my mind for now. I love you.//

"What did you say pet?" Spike looked down into shocked chocolate eyes. Brushing his lips against Xander's temple. "Say it again." Spike whispered into Xander's hair, holding the boy close.

"I. I love you Spike." Xander broke off uncertainly, closing his eyes against the embarrassment, the rejection he knew to be coming.

"I love you to Xan-pet." Spike spoke quietly, whispering the words, tightening his arms about the mortal when he felt him stiffen, afraid to let him go. "I love you Xan, I always have." Spike broke off as Xander mashed their lips together.

"You make me." Xander broke off, overwhelmed by the tide of emotion sweeping through him. Closing his eyes he began to sing.

"Turn the lights down low
Take it off
Let me show
My love for you
Insatiable
Turn me on
Never stop
Wanna taste every drop
My love for you
Insatiable"

Finally opening his eyes, he saw the same need reflected there. He knew... he knew what he felt, he wasn't the only one.

~fin~