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"Riley, I still have to tell you something. And there's no easy way- -"

"Just say it"

"Forrest is dead."

He's gone. Really gone.

< A radiant smile and Forrest slaps his back, fingers giving a barely noticed soft caress. >

Forrest is dead. So simple...three words and it's over.

< Exhausted after a long workout, panting as they lean against the wall. "Have you ever wondered what it would be like kissing a guy?" Smooth lips, velvet mouth. Never felt a tongue so soft...Tastes like syrup...Wet, warm...Body moving closer ...hips touching...so achingly hard... "Yeah, well...I just wanted to know." "Sure, we're cool." >

I can't look at her. My head in my hands, that's better.. But god, my hands can't do this. So strong, they kill demons, but they can't cover this up. They can't make this go away.

< Sweltering heat. Sweat dripping from his body. "Jeez, man. You need to cool off." An ice cube trailed down his skin, he wants to gasp but knows better. A word, a simple hiss will end this wonderful feeling. Just a buddy helping his friend, no reason to moan. Ice cube grazing his nipple....he bites his lip. Looks up into coffee brown eyes intent on their task, into a neutral face. >

He died hating me. He thought I'd betrayed him. But I was caught up in my new life...a life where he didn't seem to fit...I _wanted_ him to, but it was so hard.

< Just once. Drunk. Stumbling bodies, swirling minds. A connection. That feels nice. Warm flesh under fingertips, searching for something...but what? Wet mouths meeting in hurried sloppy movements. Hands under clothes, then cool air caressing his body. Slipping, sliding against each other. A warm mouth rapping around him, licking, sucking. So warm...such exquisite..._goodness_. Hands clench hair, urging on the feelings. More, more. Then stars. Opening his eyes, naked and alone in the room. An unspoken command hangs in the air. Never speak of this. Never think of this again. >

"I'm so sorry. There was a fight. Adam killed him. I barely got away. I know that there's nothing I can say that's gonna make this better. But we will find this thing and destroy it."

"I have to go."

"Are you sure?"

I can't look at her...

"I have to go now."

~The End ~