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You're laying there, finally calm. But I don't like this calmness I hate it. I want you to wake up again. I want you to open your eyes. I want you to speak to me, to tell me that everything will work out just fine. I want you.

But I fear you won't do one of these things. I fear you found a place to stay. You won't wake up, will you?

It's not that I wouldn't wish you peace. I do. But I want you to find that peace in my arms. You know, I would give you everything. I would do everything.

But it's too late now. Even if you would wake up. It's to late. I can't change what happened between us. There's nothing I could do make it better.

There's nothing you could do to make it better.

A part of me hates you. A part of me wants you to die.

A part of me loves you. A part of me wants to turn back time and catch you before you fall.

I wonder if you can hear me right now. What you think of me. I wonder if the dream meant something. Did you really try to help me ?

I see you in my dreams. I feel your presence when I'm asleep. You're laying close to me, I feel your breath. I feel your warmth. But I can't reach you.

Your image is tattooed on my eyes. I will never forget you. Even if there will be a time when I want to.

I start to ask myself who you really are. When we first met I thought you're like the sun. You burnt me, you amazed me. I fell into you. When you betrayed me you became the night. I hate the night. I hate darkness. It's going to kill me one day. And now...

You are a star, Faith. My guiding star. But even stars are dying.

End