Zhen Yi,
I'm sorry to say this but, you've changed a lot since your first days in Manjusri. You've
changed your ways, and seems like you really do care about your true friends. I was right.
Please Zhen Yi, when shall I be able to find your true self? I wished the happy, delightful
and kind type of Zhen Yi. But still, why do I keep thinknig of the wrong things over and
over again? You've changed Zhen Yi, compared to what I know 3 months ago. Unlike
me, I didn't change one bit; Quiet, always hiding and never-will-be-your-closest-friend.
Will I still be able to have you? Will I still be able to make you happy? Will I be torn to
pieces, or die without you? Will my attempts to have you be wasted? I'm sorry...
Zhen yi... I'm sorry... But I still love you... Please don't be angry, coz this is still what I am.
I miss the Zhen Yi from 3 months ago... Will I tell? I cried for 2 nights, coz of your words
of "I don't really love you". This is no average love, I do love you. After all the times that
we're together, memories lost... I'm sorry, I still love you, and I'll still be crying during the
nights...
If you don't love me, do you love somebody else? Am I not good enough for you? Are
my questions not making any sense? Okay. If you're angry then you'll be considering this
email of mine junk, not replying back, avoiding me in school and leaving me alone. I've
been so alone for 9 years and will be 10 years after my birthday on 31 July.
Another niceest present for me: Heart-broken, Alone, Crying, and another loss for me.
Another nicest thing to happen to me: 16th girl who broke my heart.
Another kindest thing to happen to me: Leaving me alone now...
Another nicest moment: My true friend is actually a verisimilitude...
And another best thing to happen to me if possible: You'll be angry with me for disturbing
you...
Really, if you're really angry, tell Yeat Yuan, Siew Tang, Jessica, and all your other friends
to hate me. That'll be the nicest thing... I'm sorry, but you not loving me is very hard to
accept... It's hard to accept the truth... I'm sorry... ... ... I'm sorry... ... ...
No one will again help me...