I got to see Kenny yesterday again, I love him, he's so handsome.  I wont get to talk to him again for a while but thats ok.  I've started a website about my weightloss and I'm including this blog on it.  i found some before pics and I'm starting to get them all together and getting them up. 

I also found my fat pants yesterday.   I put them on, just to see how they looked.  I expected them to simply fall, but they didnt.  It was a little disheartening.  But then I walked, to go over to the mirror and they fell.  LOL.  I need to get my picture taken in them!  They litterally are twice my size.  I love it!  Its so hard for me to beleive that I actually lost that much, but those pants used to fit me!  They were never tight though.  I started losing weight when they started fitting me just right.  I couldnt believe it.  Looking back on it now, I was disgustingly fat.  But I didnt see myself that way.  I looked in the mirror and saw the same thing I see now.  I dont see the difference, honestly I dont.

The dieting is getting more difficult.  I'm getting sick of eating the same things over and over again.  I have a cookbook for the South Beach Diet and I want to try just about everything.  But most things are multiple servings and they dont make sense for me to try to make them so I'll wait for Ken to come home so we can experiment.

I've decided to exercise 6 days out of 7 now.  With Kenny coming home soon, I wanna make sure that I lose the extra weight I've put on from being complacent.  I cant help it.  I set a goal and I reached it, hell I more than reached it.  Not only that but I reached it EARLY.  Its hard NOT to get complacent.  Now I'll set a new goal though.  I want to be 160 by the November military ball.  I wanna wear a beautiful gown and feel gorgeous instead of fat and bloated like at my prom and wedding!  C'mon, I can do it!  LOL.