I got to see my darling yesterday.  I was so happy and I went into work in such a fantastic mood!  As soon as I got there though, there were 5 people milling about the service area where I work and we were busy on the lines (3 of them were cashiers) so I offered to go on a register.  But about half an hour into my shift, I started feeling hot and dizzy and on the verge of throwing up.  I've never really been awake when I get my period so it might be normal for me but I suddenly felt like I was peeing my pants and I nearly cried with embarrassment.  I was wearing light colored pants and I was worried it would show through.  It got a bit on the pants before I could get to the bathroom a half hour after I was suppose to have my break but nothing horrible.

Now, I've been hearing interesting stories about my sister-in-law.  It makes me feel like an old boring maid that I'm sitting here shaking my head at her antics.  I've always been a bit too mature for my age so maybe thats my problem.  Sometimes I wish I could be as careless and carefree as that, but in the long run you never know if shes ruining her life or not.  But I dont know what she wants for her future so its not for me to decide.

In a way, I'm kinda jealous.  I wonder what its like to be like that.  Not that I'm not happy here, its just that shes with people and I miss the days when I was with people.  I try to make friends here but most women here have children and I'm not mature enough to have my own and not patient enough to put up with other people's kids, lol.  Screaming children at work drive me crazy.  When they're asleep or well behaved, thats when I like them, lol.  Not only that but when I talk to customers about making friends with other military wives, they tell me about how catty and evil and nosy some of the other women can get and frankly I'm too scared to make friends with them, lol.

I cant wait for Ken to come home so that I can go dancing without feeling guilty and have a partner to do it with!  I listen to R&B and hip hop all the time now, especially at home, and dance and sing.  I'd feel too guilty to go out and do it while he's away.  Men seem to get the impression that if a woman goes out and looks great, she must be on the prowl.  I cant even go to the Mousetrap anymore without getting hit on.   The other night this drunkard kept trying to get my attention but I'd just pretend that I didnt see him.  His friend sat at the table with him eventually and then noticed my wedding ring (apparently the other guy was so drunk he was blind) and got him to back off.  Thank God, lol.