The month went by so fast and every day that passes brings me one day closer to seeing my soldier again.  I keep getting worried that he wont like the way I look.  I have changed so much, inside and out.  I've got an ego the size of his head, lol.  Unfortunately its true, it even affects the way I walk.  It was brought to my attention by some guy trying to pick me up that I "swagger" when I walk.  You know what I mean...... I hadnt noticed but then I started walking a way and I did feel that I was walking different.  I wasnt slouching and simply put, I'm confident in my body now.  I know I'm sexy and I really dont care if other people figure it out.  My coworkers say I have an attitude now, and I'm not quite sure if they mean that in a good way or a bad but confidence is confidence.   I hated being so.... so..... self conscious.  I have moments where I am still and times when I feel like my old self again, but I think Ken may very well like the new me.  And if he doesnt... well I'm not going back.  I've worked for too hard and too long to get this body, this attitude.  I LOVE IT.  The only thing that makes me uncomfortable is when I get hit on.  I dont know what to do other than tell them I'm married.  AND THEY KEEP GOING.  It's like, "Ok, I'm hot, I get it.  Now go away!"  How come they cant take the hint?  I hope when Ken comes home it stops or he'll be there to help me.  I hate being rude and I cant be rude to customers!  I dont wanna lose my job.  And the guy last night said he was gonna come back and try to wear me down... I dont think so buddy.  Kenny needs to get his bum back here pronto.  LOL, I love him so much, why cant guys just leave me alone?