| chapter seventeen |

Nick pushed Brian down. "The question of the hour is: How could you do that to me, Brian?"

Brian stared at Nick. "I didn't know. I was scared too. When you and Sophia got in that fight, she had come to me. I didn't think straight."

"Straight enough to do that! I can't even count how many nights and days I spent just trying not to think of what my best friend and my girlfriend did."

Nick looked at Kevin. "You lied to me. You kept it a secret. Why wouldn't you tell me?"

Kevin looked straight ahead and didn't say a word.

"Answer me, damnit!"

"Sophia was scared, she told me not to tell. Nick, I couldn't say no."

Brian looked at Kevin. "You said that it was going to be fine. Look now, Kev! I've been to psychiatrists. They said I shouldn't die over such a thing. But a part of me died. I couldn't stand myself." Brian held up his wrists. "You see this? Howie, you're smart, tell what these are!"

Howie said calmly, "Razorblade cuts."

"I tried suicide. Nick, I detested myself. I felt dirty." Brian started to cry.

A soft knock at the door. Howie asked who it was. "It's Sophia. Rena said I should come here."

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