chapter one - mixed feelings

It had been seven years, and Juliette and AJ's friendship was still going strong. They saw each other almost every day and went out every chance they could. The only thing that could break up a perfect friendship was if too-strong feelings were to get in the way.

"Brian, how the hell? What? This will never work. I've known him since I was two days old, and I 'm not going to spoil our friendship. It's just way too valuable!" Juliette was saying. She was really close to Brian, and they always told each other everything from family problems to love problems.

"Juli, come on! Admit it! You know that you are totally in love with AJ. You can believe it or not, but you can't hide it that well!" He taunted, making her furious.

"You know what Brian? Click and clack went on a cruise. Clack fell overboard. Who's left?" She said with an angry tone of voice.

"Click?" He answered, confused. The next thing he heard was the click of Juliette hanging up on him. He sighed and figured that he would let her cool off before calling back again.

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Juliette had run up to her room and taken out her diary. Even though AJ was her best friend, she wrote down all of her feelings in her diary. She felt safe writing in it knowing that no one would ever try to read it, since nobody knew were it was.

"Oh my god! Where the hell is my freakin' diary!" She yelled, opening one of her drawers. She finally found it under a huge pile of clothes. She opened it and began writing, trying to think of all of the feelings that were bottled up inside of her from the past day.

Tuesday
Dear Diary,
I just wish that everything was normal. I wish that I never felt anything for him. Actually, I don't even think that I feel anything but friendship. Is it just that I'm trying to hide from everything else, that I try to find an excuse for not acting the same?

I am so confused. I write here everyday, and I read what I wrote over and over again each time, but I just don't understand anything. I have to tell someone about everything that is going on inside me, and this isn't the way to relieve my problems. What should I do?

AJ is only my friend, and will always be my friend. I should just try and look for different people before I break down inside, before he finds someone new, and before something happens between us. The only thing is that I feel nothing for anyone else. I don't know what to do. If only a diary were a person that I could talk to and ask questions that can be answered�

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