| ALCOHOLIC REPRIEVE |
| WELCOME to Another Edition |
| "The Point of No Return" |
| Why do I believe that I am an alcoholic? Speaking for myself and not anyone else, I have come to believe that I have within thyself the point of no return. Call it what you like...but I know that the so called disease of alcoholism does exist. Not proven to be a disease, there is definitely something within me that in my twenty-eight years as an active consumer, that I could not put a finger on it. Why did I pick up after at least one hundred times that I told myself that I would never drink again? Having woke up from so many black outs, not remembering the night before...in a jail, in a hospital, or even in a strange bed. Is it a lack of self control? No! I know that I have much control. What I do believe today is that within me there is the disease of alcoholism and the point of no return. It is Super Bowl Sunday. I'm married and raising two step kids. I decide to stay home with a six-pack of beer and enjoy the game with my family. I start drinking one, two, three, four...and at some point I lose the self control of reality. Not only do I finish five and six, but I leave my family to drive drunk for another six-pack, or, even a twelve-pack. I HAVE REACHED THE POINT OF NO RETURN. I would then return to drink until I passed out. Could I ever stop at one drink? Of course I could. Could I ever stop at just two drinks? Of course I could. The reasoning was I had yet to reach the point of no return. But, give me that third drink...you just as well give me the whole refinery. No matter what excuses I can muster up in my subconscious, the fact is that I am an alcoholic. Always will be to the day they lay me to rest. Scared to have to admit today, having many twenty-four hours of sobriety under my belt line, I can honestly tell you all, that the next drink I should pick up, will be that point of no return. Bingocliff 3/10/02 |
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