| On Tuesday I started a 3-week outpatient program. Now this is where I witnessed myself blossom from a lifeless worthless person to an inspired individual. I dug into my past and put it all on paper. I told my story at the end of the 3-week program. I saw how sick I had been and wanted desperately to get well, not only from alcohol, but from deep rooted character defects. I can now laugh at my character defects and recognise when a character defect is about to crop up. I can see them coming and that in itself is a miracle. I was a sick lady. I would suggest what helped me was that I wrote my life story down on paper, year by year, so I could point out where I went wrong and who all was in my life each year. In other words, I faced myself and my fears in a mirror and I overcame many of them. I am today still working on them on a daily basis to try and keep the program in my life 24-hours. Not just by going to meetings, I have to have AA in my life around the clock for it to work for me. If I don't, I will drink again. I don't ever want to forget my last debauch nor do I ever want to go back to there. I have today what I have, and that is a clean and sober life. Every morning and every night I work step eleven. I try to help others that are willing open and honest and enjoy sharing what got me where I am today from where I came from. I collect AA history and many recovery books. I have compiled my own scrapbooks and continue to add to them. It is so true what they say, "It works if you work it." I read something while I was in rehab that helps me alot. "No calamity, no death, no nothing should ever make me pick up another drink." Acceptance is the key to my serenity and sanity. Today for me to drink again, is to die, and that is not part of my plan for today. I want to continue to grasp all the gusto this life has to offer me and in the end I hope to live in glory land next to my Higher Power with love and grace and goodness. I also hope the miracle I had experienced will help anyone who has that desire to stop drinking, or, and, all those that want to remain sober. On October 5, 2004 I experienced five years sober. Love forever in the fellowship. Anne N. (USA) |
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