| ALCOHOLIC REPRIEVE |
| WELCOME TO THE 5th EDITION |
| The skies opened up and the rain came down. Along with thunder and lightning, this resulted in clearing the haziness out of the air that had been stagnant for the past few days. Speaking for myself, I had found thyself acquiring the same haziness in my mind. I had become lazy, self-centered, filled with self-pity, and a regular pain in the ass. Hiding myself under the covers of my bed because I was just a spoiled brat. This is not for me riding any pink cloud. This is all about forgetting where I had been, what happened, and where I was a few days ago. This is all about my program for continuance sobriety. Was I not headed for a test of the waters outside? Was I not releasing my Higher Power out of my life? Taking back my will to live as I see fit. Letting the stinking thinking tell me what to do; how to feel; what to say. A wake up call? The thunderstorm that hit the area last night was what woke me from the realization of despair. I quickly brought back my Higher Power, turning my will back over to him. Knowing far well by experience, that my life today sober can not compare to the misery when I was an active alcoholic. My Higher Power, God as I understand him, is the thunderstorm to clear the haziness out of my mind. Bingocliff 7/20/01 |
| "Haziness of the Mind" |
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