No sorrow that sneaks past your eyes
No longing for someone you left far behind
Without ever saying goodbyes.
There's no explanation for any of this,
Why smiles grace your beautiful face
Why you're so secure in the coward you are
While my heart has left but a trace.
There's nothing so painful as being alone,
When you thought there'd be love at your side.
And nothing so foolish as loving in vain,
My sacraficed dreams, hope and pride.
Someday I suppose, I'll stop blaming myself
For the straight line we carelessly bent
Perhaps even see things for just what they are
And finally I'll be content.
The whole lack of closure has opened me up
To the point that my whole self fell out
But someday I won't be afraid to be me
And I won't have to worry or doubt.
I vow almost daily to love for the love,
And swear not to do what you've done,
You've showed me exactly what I will not be,
And someday I will walk in the sun.
I look in the mirror - my pink swollen eyes,
I'm the demon that's looking at me
The slow roll of suffering pours from my cheeks
I'm the person I prayed I'd not be.
I'm the doormat and floorboard you scurried across
I'd selectively heard what you'd say
I filtered the sad things away from my ears
And quietly gave you your way
I was the scapegoat, the pauper - I took all the fall
When your sky came tumbling fast
But now I'm the wind, I will change things again
And someday all of this will have passed.
And the pink swollen eyes I had seen in the mirror
By the hope of someday will be driven,
And I'll be okay, there is always someday
And then someday you will be forgiven.