when the snow falls, did you ever look closely? close enough to notice that each flake is exactly as we'd envision it? exactly as beautiful & unique as... as you once envisioned me to be?
it's been falling softly for hours, & each flake, it's beauty wasted, as i long to be standing out there with you. but where you are is somewhere that i am not, & with each breath i waste another hope of hearing your voice, of knowing that only i, & no one else, will do tonight.
it feels so wrong, beyond 'wrong,' to be spending these moments without you by my side, making memories to share with me.
i feel that you may now be so far gone that what i long for is lost, ultimately unattainable. these words are spoken silently, & i know that no response will be received from the emptiness surrounding everything. nothing else will do, no one else can fill your shoes, & i am fighting back tears now that i know i must face this alone.