tonight, for the first time, i found myself in tears over the fact that you do not, & never will, love me. this hurts more than i could have anticipated, if i'd seen the realization coming. but i didn't; it hit out of nowhere, & with the truth finally sinking in, my heart is, at last, beginning to crack into pieces.
it is a realization that was bound to occur, & now that it has happened, i am at a loss over what to do next.
the only thing i can think to do is to run away.