Just Because You Cant See It
Don�t Mean It�s Not There


There is pain in me
Baby I wish you could see
See how I�m not me
You honestly think I have it easy
Not a worry in the world
Are you kidding me
You actually believe my fake smiles
My fake excuses such as �oh I�m just tired�
I wish you could only see
What I feel inside right now
Because it�s totally not me
If it were me
I would be smiling on the worst day
I would be ready for anything
Taking things day by day
And not being worried about what�s going to happen next
Just being excited that I don�t know what�s in store
I would want to go out,
Have fun,
Go crazy,
And not be worried about who�s talking about what.
But in fact that�s not the case
I�m stuck in this building
With people I thought were my �friends�
But turned out to be much more
Not for the better may I add.
But high school changes people
It changes you.
You don�t realize it though,
You continue to convince yourself it could never in a million years happen to you
But before you know it�
You see the changes in people first,
Then in yourself
You grow up with some,
Look back and see everything so clear
And now you look and they aren�t even in your life anymore
You try your hardest to treat people the way you want to be treated
And learn that no matter what you do those �friends� won�talways stay true to you
They will complain you are trying to get in their business
When really you were being a good friend and trying to protect them.
No matter what you do
You pay for it in the end.
You learn that no matter how much you try
Usually things will not turn out the way you want them to
You feel so exasted,
Tired out,
And like you just want to give up for good.
But you get this little boost
Kind of like an electrical shock
To your hear, and to your mind
Telling you that it is so easy to give up on things
Especially people,
But no matter how much they piss you off
You know you will always be there for them.
Because you AREN�T like them,
You would never bail on them
You would never talk about them
Unless it was to their face
Its not in you to stoop lower then them.
You love and respect yourself to much to do such a thing.
You will continute to stay strong because you have friends who love you
And actually care about you.
They even care when they see the smallest tear fall from your eyes.
They want to hear your hopes
Your dreams
Your thoughts,
And they WILL support you through the good and bad times.
No matter what Tina,
Remember to treat others the way you would want them to treat you
No matter how pig headed,
Stubborn,
Idiotic,
And messed up the may seem.
Because in the end you are the one who is the better person,
And not because you dedicated you time to not giving up on them
But because you were their friend.

By: Christina Sears
June 12, 2002
� 2002
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