Life was so childlike back in the day when I was learning my ABC's, 123's, and I can't forget those aweful cooties! Decisions would be made ith heads or tales, and two out of thress was never a bad thing. Sitting on the pavement at recess trading stickers, the graduated into another world. A world where sometimes you feel you can scream until you appear blue and no one will pay attention or notice for that matter. Everyone seems to know the 411 of your life, and everyone judges you to what the feel should be normal. They remind me of hungry poperozzie just waiting for a good story. That way they can chage it around to almost make it sound realilistic. But these days people don't take time to read between the lines. They just believe everything that is said. Still even to this present date of the 21st century everyone judges everyone else. If a girl is seen with a guy, group of guys, or has a lot of guy friends she is automatically considered a whore, slut, skank, flirt and god only knows what else. If a guy is caught crying or showing any type of emotion, he is considered a faggot, or queer. People especally teenagers is what complicates life. No one can stop another person from telling a story. I want to be myself. I want to show you the real me. But when I try I get shut down and thrown back. I want people to see that I'm the type of person who can kick back with a snack of baby carrots or grapes and have my nose in a good book, or a poem. I want people to see I'm like a deep ocean full of secrets and surprises just waiting to be unlocked. I want people to realize that I have a lot of guy friends because I get a long better with them, not for the fact I'm a big flirt. Most girls fuss about how they look, who they want to impress, but with me I just want to be me. Without turning a corner and justifying what I said to who. Girls assuming I'm trying to make them jealous because I'm good friends with a guy they like or are going out with. I show respect and get nothing in return but grief. i try to be a good friend and I get stepped on and left because I worried about them. Can't have a boyfriend because I will just hurt the guy in the long run or I'm just not good enough. People always proclaim they arebeing lied to and they always dig for the truth. But when I'm being a stuck up bitch. Everyone wants the truth but no one wants to face it. It just makes me sick that things aren't simple they just complicate after the age of 12. Boy and sex, parties and alchol, not to mention parents dirty looks. I read some where that the only one you need to please is yourself. But I guess that easier said then done. Look ahead, realize that when you hit grade 9 no matter what you do you will always find yourself trying to please and justify something to someone. Don't lose yourself and always let your gifts shine. And the people in your life who throw away friendships, accuse you of sitting on an ex bf's lap, spread and believe rumors, and most of all try and kill your spirit to live and grow just are jealous. Jealous because you have so much to offer so many people and when you finally open up inside so many people and when you finally open up inside NO one will be able to take anything from you.
By: Christina Sears
June 24, 2001
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