My heart is full, my heart is heavy, and my heart is full of pain! It�s puling, and scraped and erased. It hurts so much u just cry and bears the pain. It hurts so much you don�t know how to explain it. It�s twisting and turning and you don�t know which way to choose. Does it love you want, or just the road full of confusion and pain. You never know what to make of a situation and you try not to jump to conclusions, your hurt and your scared. Scared you will lose them, scared they aren�t being honest, and worst of all scared they are slowly disappearing out of your life. Like you are pushing them away, but you really aren�t. You try and solve things before they get any worse, worse that you can�t even bear yourself to be there, or hear it, or even want to see it yourself. You�re depressed and feel stupid. Stupid because you let yourself love once again always thinking that it will be different. More different then the last time. You know you have a bond because both of you can feel it bit lately that bond has been stretching and stretching until there is nothing left but just two people who never were and never met. Things are slowly changing and in time it will be like a dream and now after 12 months of knowing each other�. Your finally going to wake up and nothing will be as it was in the dream. You won�t be friends, then a couple, and then there comes the fighting and the break up and now you waking up. Maybe it�s not how it seems, or not how it was, but my heart right now is just full of hurt! It�s to heavy to bear to heavy to hold so maybe I should just let it go�.
By: Christina Sears
Copy Right �2000�
October 8, 2000 |
