A really really ugly morning

I had a wonderful morning when I woke up. Yet the stress from yesterday was still there and is still here. I slept longer than what was supposed to be hahahaha. Anyways, after I did all my chores this morning, I decided to stare at myself in the mirror. I found out something. I was getting fatter again. It made me feel so insecure and bad thus one sentence played in my mind over and over again: i have to lose weight. I am feeling so depressed and so down because of how I look like and it really sucks. Sometimes I wished I had anorexia. I want to lose weight. But I can't and I don't know how to start. Mark, my friend, advised me on how to yet I still can't do it. I don't have much guts and discipline to do so. I feel really horrible. Really horrible.

I started to feel worser when I draw something from my imagination just this morning. I draw a girl who really looked pretty and so vintage. That made me feel more insecure. It's like my own enemy was my self.

These are the days when I feel awful (nope, I don't have my period yet hahaha!!!!) and depressed. I need something to cheer me up but nothing, I think, can cheer me up.

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Toodlez!!! Mwah till my next post

xoxo: Fauxie the Vintage Diva